Christmas recap

I had my family Christmas thing at my house this year. It was very nice and went off without a hitch, no drama or anything. It was great. I love playing host mostly so I do not have to lug my gifts to and from home. I simply help others carry their gifts in when they arrive.

I had the house decorated really festive and had tons of great food. I started off with lots of simple appetizers like cheese and crackers, a veg tray with dip, and other assorted finger foods. My sister's b-day is Christmas Eve so she always chooses what we have for dinner. It's always fried chicken...she loves my grandma's fried chicken so I did not have to cook. I sat on the couch and watched tv and chatted up my sister ( the super model looking nurse. ) I played with the kids and had a nice time. We didnt open gifts until late in the afternoon but I was excited to watch the kids open all the presents they received. I manned down the video camera this year too. I must have been a pretty good boy bcs I did get spoiled. Again. I usually just get gift cards and cash bcs I am kind-of hard to buy for. I like to pick out my own clothes and do not usually like anything for my house that someone else picks out (sorry but I have my own taste!!)
This year was no exception, I got some gift cards, cologne, a nose hair trimmer ( gross, I know but it MUST be done) some bath and body works stuff, and my mom did get me a sweater just like the one I picked out from her for my b-day just a different color. I was really proud of her for getting me an article of clothing that I liked and that fits me correctly. All in all I would say my family Christmas this year was lovely. Of course no one makes out like grams, she is the oldest and everyone always get her really nice gifts. I got her a standing lamp that has an additional reading lamp that she can adjust for adequate lighting for reading when she's in bed. She reads for at least an hour each night before she goes to sleep. It's kinda weird how well I know her and her habits...but we have lived together for over 15 years. She is the one constant figure in my life and cant imagine who or how I would be today if it was not for her and love and support. I love her more than she will ever know. Ok, I kind-of got off the subject for a second but I do love my grams. I always tease Daniel (my super model nurse sister's nine year old son, my nephew) that she's my grandma and he always gets a little upset bcs they are really close too. It's weird how she works her spell on generation after generation. We are all very lucky to have someone like her in our lives....


Ok, I need to go, I am at work after all and need to do some work. I hope all of you had as nice a Christmas as I did and wish you all a happy, safe, and prosperouse New Year.

Much love, Justin

Workplace idiots

Ok, I love my job but sometimes it can be overwhelming. Since Rebecca quit and they dumped all of her accounts on me, it has been quite different. I love my new sales reps but damn they are difficult. Especially the one who is the "#1" sales rep in the company. He is such a diva!
Ok, here's the real reason for my post...it's Gloria. AGAIN! See earlier post concerning her. She is such a stupid bitch that I am sick of going behind her and fixing her mistakes. :(
UGH! Today I have had to edit/change all of the tickets she turned in. In my opinion if she cant turn in a complete and accurate ticket she should not get the commission for the project. If I am the one who has to do all the work, then I should!!!!

Ok, I do not want this to be an all hateful post....

In other news, one of my at-work boyfriends, Chris who we all call Tina, is getting a divorce from his wife. It's kind-of sad but he seems to be taking it really well. Even though she is pregnant again. WOW! Pregnant and getting a divorce??? Sad, really.

My other at-work boyfriend, Jeff his wife is in love with me. She wants to be my new best friend...which is ok with me. She is very nice but I just hope that my being friends with her will not affect my work place romance with Jeff. He is the nicest guy here and I love to visit with him...it's totally non-sexual!

Gotta jet for now, Much Love Everybody!!!

Another post...

In recent weeks my dating life has been so much different than ever before. After the George fiasco, I kind of stayed away from dating. I have been exchanging emails with a man from Russia, who is very nice but so young and naive. He is so different than I am. Of course, that's mostly because he lives in Russia where it's not really acceptable to be gay. I can only imagine what his life must really be like. I kinda feel sorry for him. I also have been talking to this cowboy from McAlister who is practically ready to get married...despite the fact that we have yet to meet in person. Weird, no? He is nice, aggressive, and pushy all in one. I have not completely discounted him yet though.

Christmas is almost here and I have yet to begin my shopping. Since we have so many kids in my family the adults drew names. I got Heather, my lesbian step sister. I have no idea what to get her! It's supposed to be "secretive" so I cant really ask for suggestions either. Hmm....what should I get her that she will like? So far I have come up with a gift card from Bath & Body works bcs I know how much she likes their products. That seems like taking the easy way out though so I will just have to keep brainstorming. lol...

Sometimes kids can be so funny. Today while I was home for lunch Kiah, my four year old niece was showing me her new pink Converse high top tennis shoes. I asked her where she got them and she replied from her mom. But then followed that up with "we didnt pay for them though!" and busted out laughing as she said told me she was just kidding. I thought it was hilarious too. That girl just kills me...both my sister's kids have had excellent speaking skills that came to them at a very young age. I think it's bcs we talk to them like they are adults. I can rememer when Daniel, who is now nine, was three and I was asking him about something and he asked me what his options were. I was like youre three what do you know about options!! Just another hilarious moment with my sister's hilarious kids...I cant imagine who are lives would be without them...

Much love and Happiest of Holidays to everybody!
Justin the former juglover.

Friends till the END

After two months Mackie and I have finally talked and made up. It's kinda nice that a ten minute phone call can change things so drastically. We are now friends again....
I have been meaning to call him but didnt just because things have been so strained in my life that I didnt want any more drama. As it turns out he has been waiting ( and wanting ) me to call him. I did miss him and have thought about him a lot. I have already lost a good friend and didnt want to lose another one. It's hard enough to make friends so I feel I should do what I can to retain the ones I already have. Besides that, we have been friends for eleven years now...making him the longest friendship I have ever had. I love him and I am glad things are back on track.


In other news...there is no other news. My life is quite simple these days. With the exception of oversleeping this am. I woke when my alarm went off and the next thing I know grams is waking me up and telling me it's 9am. Shit! Late again and I hate to be late. Oh well, at least I have an understanding boss and people in my dept who wont hold a simple mistake against me. I am very thankful for both of those things.

Until later my peeps!

So fucking over it

I am in a very pissy mood today....

I fell this moring on my icy driveway and now my back is absolutely killing me. That is only part of the problem though. Everything is pissing me off these days. For real, everything. I normally do not have such a short fuse so I do not know what my problem is.

Work is insane. Rebecca quit and my bosses gave me all of her accounts. Exciting, right? Hell no. I didnt want them. My work has doubled in the last week. Not that I mind, but damn....See, I told you guys I was cranky. I have had to really force myself to be nice the last couple of weeks. At work and at home. Maybe I should try to stay drunk all the time bcs I am a really happy drunk. Kidding, kidding. It would be impossible to stay drunk all the time.

Nothing new or exciting to report. I had a threesome a couple of days ago and then woke up the next day with a fever blister (cold sore, whatever you want to call it.) So, I was less than happy about that one. The threesome itself was ok, both guys were attractive ( one more than the other of course. ) The sex was pretty good too but the less attractive guy was way too into me. Not literally but he did try. I did find myself into both of them...literally but at different times. In fact me and one of the dudes double penetrated the other guy. He loved it and was yelling "harder, harder!" Everything I said to him, he responded "yes, sir." The whole experience was a bit weird but hey, a threeway is still a threeway no matter how weird.

That's it everybody, I am cranky and do not feel like typing anymore.

I will attempt to do a more light hearted post very soon.
Much love, Justin with cold sore. :( so gross.....

Ready for Thanksgiving

I have had food poisoning for the last three days but now I am back to normal just in time for Thanksgiving...which is my favorite holiday. I know what you're thinking, why not Christmas? I do love Christmas but Thanksgiving is all about family and food. Two of my fave things. I love being with all of my family and all of us eating together around my mom's huge dining room table. For real, it seats like sixteen of us and there's always a kid's table next to it too. This year I am making the pies. A pumpkin, pecan, and a pumpkin cheesecake. My mom is making fudge so she told me three pies would be plenty. Also, her mother in law is bringing two chocolate pies. I am getting hungry while typing this! :0)

In other news: I am currently single and not hating it. ; )
I have not been on any dates or anything in a couple of weeks but I am optimistic about finding someone to share my time with...not just my bed. Of course he will be invited into it but prolly not on the first date. Who am I kidding, it prolly will be! I will keep you posted bcs I do have a couple of prospects lined up. I could not go out anywhere this past weekend bcs of the food poisoning. But this next one...it's on.

I need to post something here about my grandmother. She is truly the most amazing woman. She has been supportive thru out my entire life. I just dont know who I would be today if it hadnt been for her being there for me. I have shared a house with her for the last 15 years and I only hope we can live together for another 15. She is my best friend and I only hope she knows how much she means to me. ( She does not read this, I just needed to get that out. ) She has stood beside me even when I didnt deserve it. I have been very fortunate to have someone like her in my life and always looking out for me, taking care of me, and giving a kick in the ass when it was needed to. I hope each of you out there has someone like my grams in your life. If you do, make sure they know what they mean to you.

That's it folks, enjoy your Thankgiving, appreciate your families and loved ones, and be HAPPY. It will make a difference in your daily life if you change your attitudes and strive for happiness. Seriously, happiness is everything to me. Well, that and eating the entire pumpkin cheesecake tomorrow! ;)

Here I am

Sorry it's been so long since my last post. I have been in the worst possible mood for over a week now. I am not exactly sure why either. I have been getting plenty of sleep and eating right but I still feel tired and very run-down. Or maybe I am just unmotivated. ???

I have broken off all contact with George but that's not what my problem is. Hell, maybe it is...
I just know that I have been having to force myself to be pleasant and polite. Which is usually not the case with me. I dont want to do anything or go anywhere. I have been even slacking off on my appearance, which is really uncharacteristic of me. I am so vain, and for me to not care what I look like, something's up. Now, if I could just figure out what it is. I will think about it and do some soul searching and let you guys know what I figure out.

Maybe I am lonely ( still, this is not about George ) but like lonely for some friends. I do not really have any. Or at least not any close friends that I hang out with regularly. Macki and I still have not talked since I came home over a month ago. Weird, right? But, I dont think he's the reason behind all this either. Part of it, maybe...but not the real reason. I am not only lonely but also depressed and miserable. Perhaps, I should seek counseling but find it uncomfortable to talk to someone who is a stranger. I dont care if they are doctors or not, a stranger is a stranger. I cant really talk to my parents about this either. They have enough to deal with without me trying to dump my "problems" on them. They always seem so insignificant when I talk to them about something anyway. I know, it all seems insignificant as I am typing but I cant help the way I feel.

I will do another post when I have figured out my problem or talked to someone and they shed some light on the situation.

Justin the miserable.

What the hell?

I talked with George last Friday night. I told him exactly how I felt and how shitty I thought everything that had happened was. He apologized and we talked for a bit. Then he called Sat and we talked more...then on Sunday I called him and he was busy cleaning up as his roomated family was coming over. He didnt call back that day so I called him Monday. I left him a message and he has yet to call me back ( today is Wednesday by the way.) At this point I am wondering what the hell is his problem? Why would he bother to make up with me if he was going to just blow me off again? I have really had it this time...really. I will try my best to be friends with him when I see him but as for dating, he is out of the game for good. Forever.

In other news: August and I are getting along great. When we chat, he makes me smile a lot. I just wish he lived in the same town bcs I could really see us together.

I am really missing my friends lately. Jessica is so busy at her job as am I, that we dont have time to chat anymore. Which really sucks. I miss her like crazy. Mackie and I have not talked since I left Arkansas that day. He text messaged me and we exchanged a texts back and forth but nothing was resolved, perhaps it never will be. ???

As for everything else: my job is going good, as far as I know anyway. I have really come into my own here. I hope I stay forever.

Thanksgiving is coming up soon and I have volunteered to make the pies. From scratch. I am totally ready, it has been too long since I have made a pie. I will be making a pumpkin cheesecake, a pecan pie, and then prolly buying a regular pumpkin pie. Hell, I might even make an apple pie too or maybe a chocolate one. I plan to make at least four...but have yet to really narrow it down to the final four. :-) whatever the outcome is, I am sure they will all be delicious.

Much love to all those out there planning their own Thanksgivings.

NO MORE GEORGE

So, I have reached my limits with George. I have been growing increasingly tired of his games...the games that he insists he does not play. Whatever, dude I have been in the gay dating scene long enough to recognize games when I come across them. The last straw was when he stood me up Tuesday night. I had mentioned that I wanted to go out bcs it was Halloween. He said he would go but something about it told me he would not show up. I talked to him after work and told him I was going to take a little nap. He asked me to call him when I woke up but he didnt answer when I called. That is not unusual for him though, he never answers his phone so I always end up leaving a message but sometimes refuse to. It's like every time he calls me and I cant answer ( like in the shower or something ) he doesnt answer the next time I call him, for real. It didnt take long before I started to notice this pattern. Plus, there has been this kind-of weirdness between us and the whole deal with the rule at his job is an issue too. When I asked about it he said "were still talking, arent we?" Hello, cant you just answer a question? Damn, he is always so elusive too. Cant he just once give a straight answer?
When he didnt show up Tuesday, I called him about 10:30 to ask if he was coming or on his way and of course, he didnt answer. But, he called Wednesday morning while I was at work and left a message saying that he fell asleep. No "I'm sorry" or anything. Just "I fell asleep."

So, you know what? Fuck him. I am done with him and his games...

On to something more: I did get a lot of attention from other men while at the bar Tuesday. So much that I have no worries about a man shortage in my life. If I am not going to be with George, then that leaves me free to explore other options...and explore I will. ;-)

Until next time, Justin
PS: Sorry about the gap in between posts, I have been too cranky and tired to post.

New friends and boyfriend drama

Ok, let's get to it.

I am becoming good friends with a girl from work. She is really great and our personalities mesh really good together. We have a lot in common and I just love her. We have not really spent much time together but I do feel a good connection with her...and see us hanging out in the future. I am really looking forward to getting to know her better...even though we talk a lot at work and take our breaks together, there's still room for more bonding.

Boyfriend drama is at a minumum lately...well kind-of. George and I were supposed to hang out Friday night but it didnt really happen that way. In fact, I we didnt see each other at all. Why? Well, he didnt answer my call or return my message so I went to Kansas with my grams to see my nephew who broke his elbow. Poor little guy. He is only about nine months old ( he is my half black nephew that is so cute.) I felt so bad for him seeing him with a cast that goes all the way from his shoulder and even encloses his hand. Also my niece is really sick. She has been running a high fever and throwing up. Saturday afternoon at another of my nephews b-day party ( he is three now!!) I was holding Kiah and she threw up all over me. That's ok, it's happened before and is no big deal. My sister's and brother's kids mean so much to me that I didnt even blink an eye. She started to cry and wanted her mom so I simply changed my shirt and hoped she was ok...luckily my brother and I are about the same size so I just borrowed a shirt from him.

There was more drama too that I just cant bring myself to share right now but maybe sometime in the future I will.

Well, that's it for now...I will keep y'all posted on the "George" developements as they happen. Hopefully things will work out and we can live happily ever after :-)

Another wrench in my plans

George and I are getting along great. There's just one problem: he works at my Dr's office and they told him today it's against the rules to date patients. I was like "you're not the Dr!" But I guess it really doesnt matter. At this point I really dont know what will happen. All I do know is that if we cant be together bcs of this, I will be furious and consider changing my Doctor. I am so disappointed right now I just dont know what to do....

In other news, everything else is going pretty good. No new developements to speak of.

I will blog later when I have something more to say.

Much love everybody, Justin

I am kind-of blah

I have been critized for not doing enough posts, so here goes. I really dont have much to blog about today though.

My weekend was pretty uneventful. I went out to dinner on Friday but wished I had stayed home. It was quite awful. The food sucked and my date sucked even more. That will be the last time I let a friend set me up with "someone who is perfect for me." The perfect guy for me is not interested or if he is...he has a weird way of showing it. I am just about ready to give up on a relationship altogether. I guess I am just destined to be a slut forever. I know, that is shitty but I gots to get my physical needs met and since I cant seem to come up with a prospect for a boyfriend, the slut road is the only way to go. Poor me, right?

Then I just stayed home Sat and Sun bcs I have been having problems with my back again. I am just about ready to give up on that too. No boyfriend and always in pain...what a great life I have. Oh, if you have not noticed, this is another one of my "blue" posts. I cant help it...I blog how I feel. I cant and dont fake anything. It's just not me. I am how I am, who I am. And that's what you get. If this is uncool to you, then perhaps you should tune in tomorrow when hopefully I will be in a better state of mind. Or at least I hope I am. This back pain is starting to break my spirit. Well, that and one of my good friends, who I considered a good friend is still shutting me out. If your intention was to hurt me, then mission accomplished. I cherish my friends and like to think that we can work thru any problems that might come up.

I'm out y'all. I will try to be more upbeat in tomorrow's post.

Justin

WTF??

Ok, so my guy in Arkansas is still emailing me. I have responded but with caution. Why would he think I am the kind of guy he can blow off and then think I will still be interested. Perhaps he really was busy or whatever but, like I said before, it would have only taken a couple of minutes to type out a sentence or two. Even a quick and simple phone call would have worked. But, nothing. The bad part? I do still like him but feel like if I let him know that then he will continue this behavior into the future...which I will not tolerate if things do progress.

What should I do? Forgive? Blow him off? Hmm....I am just not sure.

Ok, so George is back from Florida but has yet to call me. I know, he must be tired and prolly had to return to work today but still. What's with men? Or is it me? Am I too demanding? Maybe I have to high of expectations out of people.

I will keep y'all posted on the developements of it all..however it plays out.

What, an email now?

After my post yesterday my Arkansas boyfriend sent me an email. Bizarre, right? Considering he doesnt read this blog. He doesnt even know the url...so I know for fact that he does not. Anyway, he claims to have been busy, I believe his words were " It has truly been a crazy week." Whatever, dude. I dont need him and now dont even want him. I am going to say it's too little, too late. I do still think about him but would never admit it. I miss having somene special and cant really see myself settling for a someone special that lives six hours away. I would like to see him one more time, so he can get a real good idea of exactly what he missed out on. I know, that sounds conceited but I am still angry and a tad bitter about it all. Hell, why shouldnt I be? I spent the better part of the weekend hanging with him and then he is too busy to call or send me an email for over a week...I dont think so.

gotta jet for now kiddies, more later.

Will it ever end?

So now that it's cold and rainy my back is hurting again. Not the cant-stand-up with pains shooting down my legs pain but pain none the less. I am hoping that it really isnt cold or rainy weather but rather something else. I cant imagine what it could be but I only have one physical therapy session left! I hope she can work her magic on me one more time...and that it will last. I hate the thought that it could just spring up on me at any time, I mean damn who can deal with that? It sucks, let me tell you.

Ok, now on to the man drama in my life....
I have not heard anything from my guy in Arkansas in about a week now. Oh well, it's his loss as I would have only strung him along and used for my amusement as I probably could not have stayed faithful to someone who lives six hours away. That, and he spends all of his time with young 18 or 19 year olds. Hello, dude! You're 39 so make some friends that you are not old enough to be their father. I know, getting older is not fun but having young friends does not make you young, ya Fool. I did like him but I am thinking it was only a slight physical attration and those fade so quickly so things are better off this way. I am sure Mackie had something to do with him not wanting to keep in tough with me. Oh well, if I find out that this is true, I will take action with some revenge...you all know that if you get on my bad side there will be reprecussions. I cant say what they will be but somehow I will come up with something.

As for George, I dont think things will ever be smooth between us. He is so inaccurate in reading me and my statements, moods, facial expressions, the whole bit. Then he is weird about so many things too. And so damn moody. I could really fall for him but I dont think I will let myself.

August? Well, things are nice with us right now. Of course we pretty much only email and then talk on the phone when I call him. He is the only person who is not in my family that got me a b-day present, which is sweet considering I have a lot of fam members who didnt get me a gift. I know, I know it's not about the gifts but his means a lot to me. Very touching. Now, if only we could get together in person and see if there is something there or not...besides the physical.

Glen? is now out of the picture. He has lied and pissed me off more than he should have. Revenge on him too. Only because he owes me money and refuses to pay me back. Hell, he wont even answer his phone or his door when I stopped by the other day. He will get his, if I dont get mine.

That's it but stay tuned for even more drama to come...

My Bad Day is here

This post will mostly just be a rant...

I woke up way late this am. While in the shower I had a coughing fit that was so bad, I ended up vomiting in the shower. So freakin gross. Of course I exited the shower quickly and went to another shower in the house. I will have to clean my shower after work. So, I get to work about 40 minutes late and my boss is all kinds of pissed off. He went off about how he relies on me and how I have cost us three hours of production time with my tardiness. Nevermind that I have a fever and still trying to get over this bad-ass cold that is so extreme with coughing fits that leave me breathless or even worse: cause me to vomit. Now that' s bad. I hope it goes away soon. I am ready to get back to my healthy vibrant self.

Ok, so what's the fucking deal with guys who play games. I have had it with these types. I, myself do not play games. I am very straight forward and expect the same. Of course, it doesnt always happen that way but I can hope, cant I? My newest dude that lives in Ar has become very distant and non-existent. I wonder what the hell his problem is? He was all about me four days ago but now, it's like he has fallen off the face of the earth. Oh well, he wasnt exactly for me anyway....most of you know that I have a very bad habit of trying to make something work that clearly will not. I guess I am so desperate for a boyfriend that I go to extreme measures trying to make it happen. Stupid me. When will I learn? Probably never but at least I am starting to recognize my down-falls. Perhaps someday I will find it within myself to realize that love will come to me and not to try to force a romance with someone who just wants me for sex...which is most often the case. Damn me for having such awesome skills. For real, I must say that I have had lots of practice in that dept and have become a great lay. I can usually tell instantly what it will take to make my partner hot for me, and provide them with a hot encounter. I should probably dial it down just a bit so they will want more than just the sex. When will I ever learn????

Ok, sorry for the pity-party-like post. Sometimes you just need to get it out. Thanks for reading and please stay tuned for more upbeat posts.

The trip was a blast

Ok, so even though I was sick, I still went on my trip. I am glad I did too. The drive was nice and calm...I enjoy car trips as long as it's just me and maybe one other person with some good music to listen to.

Mackie and I had a good time with each other. Well, at least we did until Sunday morning...more on that later. He was pretty nice about me having a cold but still insisted on dragging me all over the place Saturday afternoon when I just wanted to rest after my drive. I need to re-charge so I would have plenty of energy for the clubs. Of course once I showered and started to get ready my energy charged itself. I ended up looking pretty good, good enough that Mackie's cousin ( who is fuckin hot, hot, hot ) was interested in me. Needless to say, I am interested in him too. We spent the majority of the night hanging out with each other and flirting, holding hands, and making out a little too. Unfortunately I had way too many shots and ended up passing out in the car and didnt wake up until Sunday morning. Well, Mackie woke me up and insisted that we leavve immediately. Which did not sit well with me. I was tired, hung over, and felt just awful because I really should have not been out drinking while I was ill. Oh well, you only live once and you only get a chance to celebrate your 30th b-day out of town once!

Mackie's cousin is just the kind of guy I like. He is attractive (very!) smart, likes to laugh and have a good time, he dresses really nice, has lots of friends who adore him, and he seems to really like me...or at least I hope he likes me as much as I like him.

Mackie and I ended up having a huge argument Sunday morning and it will probably be a long, long time before we speak again. If ever. We have had big fights like this before but it feels different this time. I have forgiven him many times for different things and this time I am the one who needs to be forgiven. We'll just have to wait and see how things turn out....

Anyway, I made it home safe and sound. And with a new crush.

Much love, Justin

Finally leaving

The day has finally arrived! I will be leaving this afternoon for my trip. I have had a serious cold all week long but nothing can stop me from going. I will take it easy and continue to take my antibiotics and such. Which means no parties or anything but that's ok, partying isnt always that great any damn way. I am just looking forward to seeing my friends and getting away from home for a couple of days. It's been quite a while since I have taken any trips ( at least since last New Year's Eve ) and I didnt even leave the state-I just went to OKC. I did have a good time then and met a real cool guy, who I still chat with.

I will post another post when I return and fill all you guys in on my not-so-slutty adventures!

JH

My big trip is finally here

First, I want to start out with saying how much I hate it that I wasted my b-day post bitching about other people who are completely insignificant. With that said, let's move on to something worthwhile. :-)

My trip to Arkansas has finally arrived. I dont leave for a couple more days, but I am already feeling it. It has been forever since I have taken any sort of trip anywhere. I know Ar does not sound that exciting but for me, it will be. I used to live in Ft Smith, so I have lots of friends down there ( more potential readers!) Of course I will be staying with Mackie and we will be hitting the clubs all the way from Ft Smith to Fayetteville and Little Rock. I am really looking forward to this trip, and nothing can stop me now!

Look forward to some slutty posts after I return...

Hypocrites and idiots

Let me tell you how much I hate it when someone puts me down to others for something and then turns around and does the very same thing. Fuck them, to death. The nerve of them...I have decided that I am not taking anymore shit from anyone. I will come out swinging, so dont start something that you are not prepared to finish. Everyone who knows me knows that I am about the nicest guy, until you fuck with me. Then it's not pretty. That's all I will say and now to move past this unpleasantness.

So, Happy Birthday to me. I am now 30 and do not mind it at all. I feel it's a milestone and I am happy to have made it this far.