So, after a couple of rough days, I have just had a couple of good days. :)
Today, Friday, I worked about five hrs at the guys house. It was raining here, actually it was thunder storms, and Tim said he didnt want to move anything today...so I spent five hrs cleaning their filthy ass house.
I started with the dishes, as usual, and then did everything from four load of laundry, swept, swiffered, and mopped about 2500 sq ft of their house, leaned a ton of windows ( that are 7ft tall by 2ft wide ) and the list goes on and on. It really wasnt that bad. They stayed in their bedroom and I worked at my own pace. I accomplished a lot and wasnt stressed out once...love it. Of course, the day was not without incidents though...Jack spilled a cup of coffee all over the place in the dining room. The coffee got all over the upholstry on one of the chairs ( very expensive upholstry, I might add ) and Tim kept bitching forever about it. After that died down, the day wasnt so bad at all.
We are spending the night at Aunt Cindy's tonight after spending the night at our apt in Conway last night. Everyone's gone to a family reunion except Ninny, Mackie, his dad n step mom, and Lita ( Cindy n Rhonda's sister ) came down to help M and I keep up with Ninny...bcs she cant walk on her own. Most of the time she is in her wheel chair. She is quite the spit fire for being 71 and having terminal brain cancer. So far she has threatened to wip me if I didnt stop being so quiet, and then this morning so told me to get my prissy ass in the house!!! She's hilarious. :)
Anyway...we are back here for the weekend and looking forward to next week. I hope it's more smooth sailing than this past one...which was as up and down as a roller coaster.
Alright y'all, I am going to go for now but I will be back for a weekend post tomorrow or Sunday.
Much love,
Justin
Friday, June 08, 2007
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Another day in Hell, oops I mean Arkansas
Alright y'all, I am going to refrain from doing another bitchy, whiney post...but just know that I have had the kind of day for it.
My day started off super rough with an argument with M. I will not go into details bcs I already promised I wouldnt. It was horrible and that's all I will say about it.
My day with the guys was equally shitty. Well, it was more weird sprinkled with some shit. Thank God Randy, another gay who works for them showed up kinda late in the afternoon. Tim started to focus more on him. Not in the same way as me, they have adult conversations about things like politics and such...boring as hell if you ask me. I just kind of sit there during these conversations. Jack was another story today. He was all about talking to me and acting strange. He kept saying he wanted to see my butt and suck my dick...he did neither. I did have a full day with them. I cleaned their kitchen ( hand washed dishes, swept & mopped, and a full room wipe down ) did four loads of laundry ( including drying and folding ) moved four loads of stuff with Tim to the theatre, and then cleaned their room for them. In their bedroom I filled a 30 gallon trash bag full of old newspapers that they had thrown on the floor after reading them. They are such pigs. I have never met anyone who lives like they do...rich or poor. They are rich by the way, if I hadnt already mentioned that before. Quite a lot of activities for six hrs, right?
Sorry guys, but I have to go again...to be continued later.
Much love,
Justin the lover of jugs. :)
My day started off super rough with an argument with M. I will not go into details bcs I already promised I wouldnt. It was horrible and that's all I will say about it.
My day with the guys was equally shitty. Well, it was more weird sprinkled with some shit. Thank God Randy, another gay who works for them showed up kinda late in the afternoon. Tim started to focus more on him. Not in the same way as me, they have adult conversations about things like politics and such...boring as hell if you ask me. I just kind of sit there during these conversations. Jack was another story today. He was all about talking to me and acting strange. He kept saying he wanted to see my butt and suck my dick...he did neither. I did have a full day with them. I cleaned their kitchen ( hand washed dishes, swept & mopped, and a full room wipe down ) did four loads of laundry ( including drying and folding ) moved four loads of stuff with Tim to the theatre, and then cleaned their room for them. In their bedroom I filled a 30 gallon trash bag full of old newspapers that they had thrown on the floor after reading them. They are such pigs. I have never met anyone who lives like they do...rich or poor. They are rich by the way, if I hadnt already mentioned that before. Quite a lot of activities for six hrs, right?
Sorry guys, but I have to go again...to be continued later.
Much love,
Justin the lover of jugs. :)
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Emotional wreck
Alright guys, I am about to let it all out...
I am so fucking upset lately. Trying ( somewhat successfully ) to hide it.
I absolutely hate it in Ar. Mackie and I are just barely getting along. Most of the time the last couple days there has been this weird tension. We are both on edge bcs we are so broke. We didnt get to work three days in a row last week and are trying to catch up. He borrowed money yesterday from the old men ( but started that new job today ) so now I am working my ass off to pay it back. Basically I feel like I am making his car payment while mine goes unpaid. It is not a good feeling. So, it will be the first of next week before I will get paid. I have 19hrs left before we will be paid up. Until then, we are basically fucked. We have no money, no nothing. Fucking sucks. We will be packing up to move back into the camper tomorrow, to stay at Aunt Cindy's...thank God we do have the camper to stay in, it's just in Cindy's yard. We have to stay there bcs we have to money for food. Yeah, things are that good for us right now...
Ok, back to the tension between M and I. I feel so unappreciated and lost. He expects so much from me, and then acts all pissed when I dont do something. He is so controlling too. He decides every move we make. Where we will eat. He holds the money. The money that he borrowed he gave me $15 out of it for gas to get to work today, and a pack of cigarettes. He is now saying we have no money left...I do think the money thing is most of our problem. He is so touchy, a loose cannon. I feel like I have to try to stay on his good side bcs if I dont, there will be hell to pay. For instance, the other day he went to get some food and I didnt want to go. Shannon, a friend of his was going with him so I figured he wouldnt be that mad if I didnt go. Wrong again. He must have been really pissed bcs he waited a good thirty minutes before he brought my food home. It was Chik Fil A too. Under temperature chicken is always a good idea for dinner, right? That's just one example of how he will punish me if I dont do one little thing he wants. Oh, and he told his roommate, who told Shannon and Gary, and his Aunts about my little episode in the pysch ward too after he told me he wouldnt tell anyone. There is so much more but I dont want to seem too whinny. Not that I havent already...
Overall, I just want to go home. I hate it here. The constant not knowing is killing me. Not knowing where I am going to sleep that night, not knowing if we will have money for necessities, the not knowing if M is up to something behind my back, not knowing what the hell is going on bcs he doesnt share anything...I have to ask a million questions.
Sorry for the bitchy post y'all. I have no one to talk to and had to get this out. I have so many emotions stirring around in me that I am not sleeping, eating half of what I usually do, my skin looks horrible, I could go on and on all night...but I will stop here.
Thanks for "listening" everybody.
Much love,
Justin
I am so fucking upset lately. Trying ( somewhat successfully ) to hide it.
I absolutely hate it in Ar. Mackie and I are just barely getting along. Most of the time the last couple days there has been this weird tension. We are both on edge bcs we are so broke. We didnt get to work three days in a row last week and are trying to catch up. He borrowed money yesterday from the old men ( but started that new job today ) so now I am working my ass off to pay it back. Basically I feel like I am making his car payment while mine goes unpaid. It is not a good feeling. So, it will be the first of next week before I will get paid. I have 19hrs left before we will be paid up. Until then, we are basically fucked. We have no money, no nothing. Fucking sucks. We will be packing up to move back into the camper tomorrow, to stay at Aunt Cindy's...thank God we do have the camper to stay in, it's just in Cindy's yard. We have to stay there bcs we have to money for food. Yeah, things are that good for us right now...
Ok, back to the tension between M and I. I feel so unappreciated and lost. He expects so much from me, and then acts all pissed when I dont do something. He is so controlling too. He decides every move we make. Where we will eat. He holds the money. The money that he borrowed he gave me $15 out of it for gas to get to work today, and a pack of cigarettes. He is now saying we have no money left...I do think the money thing is most of our problem. He is so touchy, a loose cannon. I feel like I have to try to stay on his good side bcs if I dont, there will be hell to pay. For instance, the other day he went to get some food and I didnt want to go. Shannon, a friend of his was going with him so I figured he wouldnt be that mad if I didnt go. Wrong again. He must have been really pissed bcs he waited a good thirty minutes before he brought my food home. It was Chik Fil A too. Under temperature chicken is always a good idea for dinner, right? That's just one example of how he will punish me if I dont do one little thing he wants. Oh, and he told his roommate, who told Shannon and Gary, and his Aunts about my little episode in the pysch ward too after he told me he wouldnt tell anyone. There is so much more but I dont want to seem too whinny. Not that I havent already...
Overall, I just want to go home. I hate it here. The constant not knowing is killing me. Not knowing where I am going to sleep that night, not knowing if we will have money for necessities, the not knowing if M is up to something behind my back, not knowing what the hell is going on bcs he doesnt share anything...I have to ask a million questions.
Sorry for the bitchy post y'all. I have no one to talk to and had to get this out. I have so many emotions stirring around in me that I am not sleeping, eating half of what I usually do, my skin looks horrible, I could go on and on all night...but I will stop here.
Thanks for "listening" everybody.
Much love,
Justin
Hey guys..
Hey y'all. Still here in Ar, not much has changed there.
A few other things have changed though.
First of all: Mackie has gotten a job. A traveling salesman job. He only travels around here in Ar so it's not like he will ever be gone overnight. He also gets a co car and gas card. I hope he likes it...and that he stays at it.
Next, since Mackie is now working, I have to go to work for the old guys alone. I was pretty nervous about it, but everything worked out alright. Tim kinda flirted some while we were moving stuff and then at lunch but I didnt play along. He asked me this afternoon what my thoughts on him cheating on Jack were...I told him it wasnt for me to say. Jack was kinda moody today, he asked me to say something sweet to him. ??? I asked him if he was having a rough day, and he said no, that he just wanted me to be sweet to him. I have been so far, so I am not sure why he would say such a thing. It was a tad weird. I just kinda grabbed what I was after and left the room. Then Tim asks me after lunch if I will help him change the sheets on their bed. I said yes, but had no intention of doing it. I was not putting myself in that position...alone with them in their bedroom. Hell no, that's the only room in the house that I don't have to clean and I dont want them to start expecting me to. We'll see how it works out...
Gotta jet again,
Justin
A few other things have changed though.
First of all: Mackie has gotten a job. A traveling salesman job. He only travels around here in Ar so it's not like he will ever be gone overnight. He also gets a co car and gas card. I hope he likes it...and that he stays at it.
Next, since Mackie is now working, I have to go to work for the old guys alone. I was pretty nervous about it, but everything worked out alright. Tim kinda flirted some while we were moving stuff and then at lunch but I didnt play along. He asked me this afternoon what my thoughts on him cheating on Jack were...I told him it wasnt for me to say. Jack was kinda moody today, he asked me to say something sweet to him. ??? I asked him if he was having a rough day, and he said no, that he just wanted me to be sweet to him. I have been so far, so I am not sure why he would say such a thing. It was a tad weird. I just kinda grabbed what I was after and left the room. Then Tim asks me after lunch if I will help him change the sheets on their bed. I said yes, but had no intention of doing it. I was not putting myself in that position...alone with them in their bedroom. Hell no, that's the only room in the house that I don't have to clean and I dont want them to start expecting me to. We'll see how it works out...
Gotta jet again,
Justin
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Chillin' on a Sunday in the middle of no where
Hey guys...coming at you again from aunt Cindy's in Gum Log, Ar.
It's Sunday and M and I have been busy today too. We went this am to finish up some errands and such after breakfast...and have been out here since we finished. Oh well, at least most everybody that was here went home this am. Aunt Rhonda should be back today too...she's been in Search, Ar visiting here bf. She should be back this afternoon and then Aunt Lisa will be going home, everyone takes turns helping Aunt Cindy out with Ninny ( who is M's grandma that now has terminal brain cancer. ) Very sad situation...she is such a lively woman. She ( and the rest of the family ) have made me feel so comfortable. I will always appreciate their hospitality. It's not every family that allows their gay nephew or grandson bring over their gay friend to stay for days at a time. Seriously guys, we have spent almost as many nights here than we have at our apt in Conway since I arrived.
This will be the last month we pay rent though...we are moving into Uncle Bub's camper for a month. It is a nice one, just needs a little cleaning and some fairy dust. It has everything we could possibly need: air conditioning, shower & toilet, refridgerator, the whole nine yards...it's only going to be for a month or maybe two. I really dont even mind so much, we are going to spend a couple weeks camping out at the lake. Hopefully the summer will be a good one...
I need to get a few things off my chest, as I am pretty much without anyone to talk to...
I miss my family so much I can hardly stand it. Grams and Kiah, my Mom and Sister, everyone. It's tough going from seeing all of them daily to now have not seen any of them in weeks...and it will be another month or so before I see them again. I just have to hold it together until my homesickness subsides. Of course being around M's family so much kinda makes things easier though...many of them I have known for over ten yrs so it's not like I just met them.
Also, I am worried about my back situation. I have some rx's right now that are helping but what will I do when I run out of them? I cant function with that much pain. Not for work or otherwise. I have been racking my brain trying to think of something, anything I can do to ease the pain. For real, it's pretty out of control again. The littlest things make it throb. M ( whose leg was crushed and now has a metal rod in there ) is not exactly sympathetic either. It's ok when he's is hurting, but I am expected to grit my teeth and drudge on...
And, I have this weird feeling that there's something M is not telling me...
Not sure what in the hell it could be, but I just feel like something's up...
Stay tuned guys.
Much love to everyone,
Juggy
It's Sunday and M and I have been busy today too. We went this am to finish up some errands and such after breakfast...and have been out here since we finished. Oh well, at least most everybody that was here went home this am. Aunt Rhonda should be back today too...she's been in Search, Ar visiting here bf. She should be back this afternoon and then Aunt Lisa will be going home, everyone takes turns helping Aunt Cindy out with Ninny ( who is M's grandma that now has terminal brain cancer. ) Very sad situation...she is such a lively woman. She ( and the rest of the family ) have made me feel so comfortable. I will always appreciate their hospitality. It's not every family that allows their gay nephew or grandson bring over their gay friend to stay for days at a time. Seriously guys, we have spent almost as many nights here than we have at our apt in Conway since I arrived.
This will be the last month we pay rent though...we are moving into Uncle Bub's camper for a month. It is a nice one, just needs a little cleaning and some fairy dust. It has everything we could possibly need: air conditioning, shower & toilet, refridgerator, the whole nine yards...it's only going to be for a month or maybe two. I really dont even mind so much, we are going to spend a couple weeks camping out at the lake. Hopefully the summer will be a good one...
I need to get a few things off my chest, as I am pretty much without anyone to talk to...
I miss my family so much I can hardly stand it. Grams and Kiah, my Mom and Sister, everyone. It's tough going from seeing all of them daily to now have not seen any of them in weeks...and it will be another month or so before I see them again. I just have to hold it together until my homesickness subsides. Of course being around M's family so much kinda makes things easier though...many of them I have known for over ten yrs so it's not like I just met them.
Also, I am worried about my back situation. I have some rx's right now that are helping but what will I do when I run out of them? I cant function with that much pain. Not for work or otherwise. I have been racking my brain trying to think of something, anything I can do to ease the pain. For real, it's pretty out of control again. The littlest things make it throb. M ( whose leg was crushed and now has a metal rod in there ) is not exactly sympathetic either. It's ok when he's is hurting, but I am expected to grit my teeth and drudge on...
And, I have this weird feeling that there's something M is not telling me...
Not sure what in the hell it could be, but I just feel like something's up...
Stay tuned guys.
Much love to everyone,
Juggy
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Still at aunt Cindy's...
Here I am still out here in the sticks...with about 30 of Mackie's family members. No, it's not a re-union, just a weekend cookout. Since M's grandma is so sick and almost died of cancer, their family gets together more frequently now. I know my family would do the same.
We didnt get to work again today. Jack called late last night and said Tim was "broke down" and that they would see us on Monday. Ugh! We really needed to work today...oh well, next week we will just have to make sure we work every single minute we can. I am starting to wonder how much longer they guys will be willing to shell out that much cash every day. M and I get paid ten bucks an hr cash and get paid every day. We usually leave there with between $120 & $140. We cant get there until about 10am bcs that's when Tim get up, and he's always ready to wrap things up about 4pm. But, for the six or seven hrs we get paid for, we only are doing actual work about half the time...Tim likes to take lots of breaks or
"rests" as he calls them. We also get our lunch bought for us and get paid for our lunch break too. It's really not a bad deal at all...of course I am leaving out some of the nastier details bcs my mom reads this :)
Overall, life in Ar is not so bad. M and I have our little spats daily but nothing serious...so far. We are so much alike and so different at the same time. I just hope we can continue to be nice to each other and get along so we can make the most out of living together. He has such a temper though...and the slightest thing can set him off. Then it takes forever for him to cool off too. I try and stay as calm and mellow as possible that way we dont fight as much...wish us luck.
Gotta jet for now.
Justin the juglover
We didnt get to work again today. Jack called late last night and said Tim was "broke down" and that they would see us on Monday. Ugh! We really needed to work today...oh well, next week we will just have to make sure we work every single minute we can. I am starting to wonder how much longer they guys will be willing to shell out that much cash every day. M and I get paid ten bucks an hr cash and get paid every day. We usually leave there with between $120 & $140. We cant get there until about 10am bcs that's when Tim get up, and he's always ready to wrap things up about 4pm. But, for the six or seven hrs we get paid for, we only are doing actual work about half the time...Tim likes to take lots of breaks or
"rests" as he calls them. We also get our lunch bought for us and get paid for our lunch break too. It's really not a bad deal at all...of course I am leaving out some of the nastier details bcs my mom reads this :)
Overall, life in Ar is not so bad. M and I have our little spats daily but nothing serious...so far. We are so much alike and so different at the same time. I just hope we can continue to be nice to each other and get along so we can make the most out of living together. He has such a temper though...and the slightest thing can set him off. Then it takes forever for him to cool off too. I try and stay as calm and mellow as possible that way we dont fight as much...wish us luck.
Gotta jet for now.
Justin the juglover
Friday, June 01, 2007
Here I am...
Hey guys, again I am sorry for the absence. Mackie and I have been crazy busy again...he does live a fast paced life, and now I do too.
We have only gotten to work about three days this week. We did call in a day, we were just too tired to go in. Not very responsible but hey, we deserved a break for a day...or at least we thought so at the time. Then we didnt get to work today, the old fags went to Little Rock. They take their dry cleaning all the way to LR! That's just how fuckin' dumb they are. Anyway, now we are kinda broke and hoping for the best.
Lot's of other things have happened too...so many weird things happen to me all the time but I cant always get to a computer and by the time I do, I have forgotten them :) We are always out and about running around somewhere and see hot guys everywhere! Arkansas sure can grow some hot motherfuckers down here. I met the boyfriend of one of M's friends and he is just about the hottest man I have ever seen...in real life. Damn was he smoking. Remeber my posts about Jordan? The hot 24 yr old? The guy I met today is much, much hotter than Jordan and I considered him almost a ten. Ok, ok I am starting to lose focus...
Well, I am sitting at aunt Cindy's right now typing this post, and M is shouting at me to come and do something with him so I gots to go ( he punishes me in weird ways if I dont do something with/for him.) Like the other day, I didnt go with him to get some food ( oh, and he didnt go alone, a friend of his Shannon, went with him ) and he waited for like 45 mins to bring me my food...it was stone cold. So nice of him...but I do still love him to pieces, he is now and prolly always will be my bestest friend. Ever.
Hugs * Kisses,
Juggy
We have only gotten to work about three days this week. We did call in a day, we were just too tired to go in. Not very responsible but hey, we deserved a break for a day...or at least we thought so at the time. Then we didnt get to work today, the old fags went to Little Rock. They take their dry cleaning all the way to LR! That's just how fuckin' dumb they are. Anyway, now we are kinda broke and hoping for the best.
Lot's of other things have happened too...so many weird things happen to me all the time but I cant always get to a computer and by the time I do, I have forgotten them :) We are always out and about running around somewhere and see hot guys everywhere! Arkansas sure can grow some hot motherfuckers down here. I met the boyfriend of one of M's friends and he is just about the hottest man I have ever seen...in real life. Damn was he smoking. Remeber my posts about Jordan? The hot 24 yr old? The guy I met today is much, much hotter than Jordan and I considered him almost a ten. Ok, ok I am starting to lose focus...
Well, I am sitting at aunt Cindy's right now typing this post, and M is shouting at me to come and do something with him so I gots to go ( he punishes me in weird ways if I dont do something with/for him.) Like the other day, I didnt go with him to get some food ( oh, and he didnt go alone, a friend of his Shannon, went with him ) and he waited for like 45 mins to bring me my food...it was stone cold. So nice of him...but I do still love him to pieces, he is now and prolly always will be my bestest friend. Ever.
Hugs * Kisses,
Juggy
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