Rants

Hey Y'all...

I met this guy, Jordan. I met him thru a mutual friend ( the same one I met Tony & Buck thru.)
He is cute, seemed nice, and everything was great. Oh, and he's only 24. Well, come to find out he was only using and playing me. That's right, I got hustled. Hard. And I might have caught an STD from him too. I will find that out later. I hope I didnt but it's too late for wishing now. At least it's one that is easily gotten rid of. But still. He really played the romance card on me, and I totally believed it. There were so many red flags but I kept hoping that things were not really what I thought they were. I guess I should always trust me instincts. Always. Oh, well what's done is done. The problem, is that I really liked him. A lot. In the short time I have known him we clicked really well and things seemed like they were going so well. It hurts so much to realize that it was all a lie. I told him if he had just been honest with me, I would have been down with just having some fun, that he didnt have to do what he did...wait, was I really trying to rationalize a hustler? Lord, I am hopeless. Not stupid, I was just blind to it. Anyway, enough about him...at this point he is not worth typing about. I have learned my lesson the hardest way possible again.


On to other news: I hate this girl I work with. She's one of those "I'm pretty, help me, do everything for me" kind of girls. She gets away with so much, it's fucking unbelievable. It's really not fair to the rest of us who obey the rules and do what's expected of us, unlike her. She pushes the boundaries just to see how far she can ( or that's what I think anyway.) I fucking hate her. She has on shorts and flip-flops today in an office environment that's business casual. The rest of us have on slacks and shoes, while she gets to wear whatever she wants. It's not just that either...it's a whole lot more. More than I care to go into right now. I fucking hate her. My only solace is that people like her get what's coming to them eventually. I just hope I am around to see it when it happens. I fucking hate her.

That's it guys: from Hustlers getting over on me to a bitch at work getting away with murder...things are just fucking great for me right now.


I fucking hate her,
Juglover

Nothing Exciting lately...

I have been having a pretty quiet and boring life lately. Well, except for my weekly hook ups but you can only talk about those so much before people think you are a slut. :)

Things are going pretty good for me lately. Work, home, and everything else...no drama. I like this way though.

I am still waiting for a visit from Mackie, you remember it's his turn to come see me. I am hoping it will be in May sometime...before it gets too hot to do anything fun. Speaking of fun, I will be going to the lake this summer with my at-work boyfriend and his wife & kids. It should be fun. Yes, that's right, I resolved my little spat with the old at work bf. I couldnt help it...he isnt really that bad, just a typical man. The type that's not really that nice or fun to be around when busy or stressed out.


I wish I had something more exciting for you guys to read...maybe next week.

Much love,
JUSTIN

CATCHING UP...

A lot of things have happend lately...


My trip to Mackie's was good. Not great, but still good. No fighting, or drama at all. Our big night at the clubs in Little Rock were kind-of a bust. They were a little dead that night, and it was a Saturday too. Oh well, all in all the trip was a success. He will be coming to see me pretty soon. Let's hope that visit will be just as nice.

On to other news...
My at-work boyfriend, who I have let myself develope real feelings for, and I have been kinda fighting the last couple days. Let me tell you, it sucks. Big time. My feelings are so freakin hurt. The worst part is that he doesnt even seem to care. Or, maybe he is just another clueless, careless jerk like many other straight guys. He is not completely straight though. Two days ago he spoke very sharply to me and gave me a couple dirty looks. Then the next day the same thing happened again...a couple times that day. I know I am a very sensitive, emotional person but this really hurt. I have talked to his wife about it all and she says he is just that way...and I should make him pay. I have thought about and have decided that I will just avoid him. For good. No more at-work boyfriend anymore. I guess I will just have to get over him now. I am so frustrated that I have allowed myself to become to attached to a married man, whose wife I am friends with. What a fucking mess!!! I will figure it out and let everyone know how the situation plays out...


Much love to everyone except my former at-work boyfriend,

JUGLOVER