I need to vent

Ok, so the people I work with are sick of listening to me complain about how bad my back hurts. So, I figured I would type it out just to get my feelings out. I am still not exactly sure what is wrong with my back but I am going to a specialist this coming Tuesday. Thank God. I cant stand the pain any longer.

This is what it feels like: most of the pain is in my lower back on both sides of my spine. The pain kinda explodes up thru the middle of my back stopping just before the shoulder blades. It also shoots down both legs ( but not all the time ) and the best part is that it feels like someone is squeezing my testicles too. My primary Dr thinks I have an inflamed nerve that is connected to all the other nerves ( explaining the shooting pains...even in the testicles.) However, the Orthopedic Dr will tell me for sure. I will most likely be getting cortizone shots directly into my back...everyone I know that has received the shots say they dont work. I am willing to try anything at this point. I am so empty-headed all the time from taking all the pills. After I ate lunch I took two muscle relaxers, one of pain pill #1, one of pain pill #2, and an
anti-inflammatory. I hate feeling like this, especially when I have taken all those pills and my back still hurts. :( Thanks for "listening" everybody. Have a good weekend too :)

Moving Day

The day has finally arrived. It is time to move. Really looking forward to living in the new house ( it's so nice and so cool ) but not looking forward to the actual act of moving. I have a ton of shizz that will prolly take the whole day to move. Oh, and I am moving out of a four bedroom into a three bedroom too, which means I will prolly be having a garage sale to sell the excess that wont fit into the new place. It is a really interesting rock house...when you walk in the foyer has a rock floor and there's this huge rock column in between the living room, dining room, and kitchen. It opens into a fire place in the living room too. So cool...I love it and cant wait to build a fire this winter. Gotta jet for now but maybe another post this afternoon....

Time for vengence

If anyone remembers Manders post about "Magda" from our work...then you will have no problem relating to this post. She is among the nastiest and most horrible people I have ever known. Think Cruella De Ville, only after me instead of the puppies. Each day I am faced with a different altercation with her and get no back up from her boss. He lets her act any way she chooses and she does...bcs there are no reprecussions. So, what's the vengence you ask? Well, I have tried flattening her tires but I am getting tired of getting up in the middle of the night and driving all the way to her house. Now I will be putting Visine in her drink every day. I only have to watch for her to go to the restroom to make my move. Diarrhea everyday should teach her a lesson. Or at least make her feel like shit, as she does me when she's screaming at me. I normally am not so vindictive but this has gone on long enough and action must be taken. Dont mess with a fag who has a mean streak is all I can say....because you will end up getting jacked up. Or at least suffer thru having the runs every day. :)

Justin's out of the coma...or is he?

Ok, so with my back being so painful and seemingly getting worse...I have been prescribed some pretty powerful shizz. I dont enjoy being loaded all the time but for now it's a necessity. The real problem is that if I take the necessary steps (pills) to sleep at night then I dont wake up in the morning, until grams literally shakes me awake. By that time I am late for work. This has happened like 2 or 3 times a week for the last month. I am freaked that not only will I get fired but what if something were to happen in the night? My reaction time is non-existent. I can always not take anything and just be awake all night ( in horrible pain ) but at least I make it to work on time. So, for now I am going to keep taking the mind-numbing pills and grams is going to wake me up. Every day, now that should be interesting, waking up to grams shrill, screaming-loud voice. Hmm, maybe sleepless nights dont sound so bad after all....

Bouncing Jugs

This morning I was at our new house, yeah I am moving!! I was sitting there waiting for the cox cable and city dudes to fix the gas and got bored. So, I was out in the front yard just looking around, oh then pulling the hideous plastic flowers out of the flower boxes around the trees. I look up and see this young lady jogging down the street. Did I mention she was coming towards me? Wearing only a pink and orange sports bra and spandex hot shorts. Dang, it's a jug lover's dream. I watched her (of course!) until she passed by, thinking the whole time how much I hope she lives on my street. :)

Also: still with bf, who accepted all of my terms after our big talk. He is like a puppy. So eager to please and so excitable! He was pretty quiet during the talk as I dominated most of the conversation but then afterwards told me he would take the necessary steps to be with me. He really is a great guy. I just wish he was more of a "man." I think he is trying to emilate my personality must be the reason for his new more fem personality. At least I hope so, bcs I told him he was not the person I thought he was when we first met. Oh well, I guess no one is perfect...but for now I am still with him.

Andy

Ok, so it seems nearly everyone on here is a pet lover. As I am too I decided to dedicate this post to my dog: Andy. He is a 5lb half yorkie and half pomeranian. I just adore him and love to rough house, wrestle, and play with him. I would even say I would be lost without him now. He is almost 3 and I have had him since he was about 6 weeks old. It's kind-of a funny story how I got him. I was at work one Saturday afternoon when my parents called and said I needed to come home after work...they had something for me. Considering I didnt live with my parents, I thought this was strange. So, I get home from work and they had bought me a dog!!!! I had not had a dog since I was a little boy, plus I was working like 60 hrs a week ( rest mgr ) and didnt think I would be able to devote enough time to him. But I loved him instantly and kept him. He is a once in a lifetime dog. As a mix of two other breeds, you know. I spend most of my time wanting to choke him...he is very stubborn, doesnt come when you call him, and will bite if you even try to pick him up. I usually bribe him with treats. This action must be taken when trying to coax him into the bedroom or even to go outside to potty. Man, he does seem a lot like me after all. :) At least he's cute, so that makes all of his short-coming tolerable. And as I said earlier, life would be awful lonely without him.

JUGS EXTRAVAGANZA

Ok, y'all...I dont exactly know how to explain it but I am gay dude who is crazy for the jugs. I love to see them and sometimes touch them. I usually dont but I LOVE to see them. Just ask Manders, she will tell you how much I love them. Oh, and hers are perfect. Full, Round, and Lovely...she should be very proud. I love it when she brings them to work on display. :)

Ok, on Saturday I was out grocery shopping and see this goddess approaching me. She is something out of a fashion magazine. Tall, bronzed skin, long/thick/full sandy-blondish hair. And the jugs were out loud and proud. She was hot, hot, hot. I watched her for a couple minutes when she passed by me and said "hey" to which I quickly ( not wanting to seem bizarre bcs I had been staring at her) replied "I like your shirt" and then we made small talk for a minute until grams came looking for me. The funny part? I dont even know what the hell the shirt looked like. :)

Saturday later in the day I see a not-as-hot-as-before girl coming towards me down the cosmetics aisel ( I told y'all I was gay..and out of foundation!! ) who was wearing this hooker like tank top that was a size or two too small. But there were the jugs. Sitting high and mighty as if they were better than real ones. I looked anyway and she smiled at me. I smiled back and asked how much they were. She busted up laughing and then said $7600...I got them 6yrs ago when they were more expensive. Then I helped her pick out a couple of lip glosses and some eye shadow. I wanted to go for a full make-over with her but she said she didnt wear blush or eye liner. Whatever, how many hookers you know dont wear blush and eye liner??? :)

It's Friday, finally

So, it's friday, y'all. For a boy like me : it's Fryday, as in getting fried. Love it. Only one problem, I am not enjoying the Fryday like I should, or normally do. Perhaps it might have something to do with the fact that I was up sick all night, which was proceeded by an argument with my best friend of 11 yrs and my grandma too. I am usually really calm ( wonder why? ) but I did kinda lose it with both of them...not exactly my style. I like to be the reserved one who makes the other one feel foolish. :) ok, enough about that....moving on.

So, I am still with my bf, but am only seeing him every other day or so now. Before we were seeing each other daily and it was getting to be too much, too soon. Oh, he is still calling a gazillion times a day though. It's nice to be loved but being smothered is a whole other story. I have this weird thing about me that all the men I get involved with either: just want sex only ( first name basis only too, no more personal info ) or fall in love with me in five minutes and want me to move in with them and get married. I just can't seem to find a guy that wants to date and have fun. I need someone in between the above mentioned formers.

Anyone know any decent, good-looking, nice, humorous and witty, employed, laid-back, homos?
Oh, and they should live in Ok too. I cant be faithful to someone who doesnt live in the same town...I have tried :)

Lunch With The Family

I just returned to work from having lunch with my mom, grandma, and 4 year old niece. It was quite the experience. As it turns out our waitress is the room mate of some random dude from the past...you know, someone I had a one night stand with. She immediately recognized me and said I looked familiar. I knew who she was but pretended I didnt...then she carried on for like 5 minutes about cute I am and how much she liked my out fit ( which is pretty hot.) I could tell my parents were a tad embarrassed but got over quickly when I changed the subject to them.
My mom starts a new, higher paying job this Monday so she was eager to talk.
Grams, smashed her hand in the garage door and needed some sympathy from her First and Favorite grandson, which I gladly dished out.
My niece was all about telling me what she did last night in the swimming pool with her brother, my 8 year old nephew. I love those kids and couldnt imagine my like without them, I kinda feel like they're my kids too. I have always been very close with my family, especially my sister. And now I worship her children. My brother has three kids that I am not quite as close too but love them just the same. They live a couple hours away so I dont see them as often as I would like to but when I do see them, it's a great time.

Ok, another issue...I had the best opportunity to have sex with someone other than my boyfriend last night....and I declined!!!! I was so proud of myself, for exercising self control-that I rarely have. I had just talked to the bf on the phone and he ended the conversation with an
I love you" so there was no way I was going to see someone else. No way at all. I dont exactly love him but think I should give him the chance he deserves. Go me, right? With my morals and all :) new found moral at that.

Well, guess that's about it for now but would love to hear some feedback and opinions.

A SPECIAL SHOUT-OUT

I must thank Mander's....for posing for the new picture on my profile.
I did loan her the black bra though. :)

Oh, yeah!

I forgot to mention in the last post that there are other dudes interested in me too.

#1 : lives in Okc and is really cute, nice, and has a great personality. The problem? He lives a couple hours away and honestly, I dont think I can be faithful to someone who doesnt live in the same town.

#2: lives here and I have been having sex with him for about three years and he is now wanting to date me, exclusively. He is very attractive, has a great job where he makes tons of $, but he has this huge gun collection that freaks me out.

#3: also lives here. He is good looking and really likes me, almost worships me which is weird but flattering. The draw-back on this one? He has three kids and a bitter, nasty ex wife who would make our lives miserable and relationship almost impossible. I really like him though.

So there you have it: my soap opera style dating situation.

What Should I do?

I didnt do a post yesterday so here's #2 for today:

Ok, so I have been single for like three years-not lonely years because I am kind-of a tramp. Some might even say a slut :)
For the last like 6 weeks I have been seeing this dude. He is very cute, treats me like no other has before, very good in bed ( more on that later )but doesnt have a job. He has expressed that he is going to get a job but hasnt even really looked. He is already saying he loves me, which is nice. Here's the problem: I dont feel like I can fall in love with someone who doesnt have a job. Should I keep seeing him ( I dont want to lead him on ) or break it off now? I really like this guy and dont want to seem shallow but damn, six weeks and no job. I have tried to weigh the pros and cons but just cant reach a final decision. He is about the nicest boyfriend I have ever had and so thoughtful too. He is really sensitive and sweet but then becomes really aggressive and masculine at the appropriate time :)
He is also getting along great with my family ( he has met grams from the above post and my aunt who also lives with us ) and they reallly like him.

There, I have vented and shared my most challening issue.
Any thoughts or comments? Feel free...

A Lesson Learned

Ok, so I once again learned something the hardest way possible.

First of all, let me start out with saying that I have an inflamed nerve in between a couple of disks in my lower back...that being said you can imagine the astounding amount of pain I endure each day. I take pills, limit my physical activities, and even wear lidocaine patches but nothing really helps. That being said, here's the story:

I am moving into a different house next week, so we are starting to move things each day. ( oh, and my room mate is my 64 yr old grandmother.)
Monday evening I am walking down the hallway in our current house and see grams coming out of the spare bedroom, which is a tv room, carrying the tv!!! She's fuggin' 64, yall! So, I immediately take the tv from her and make it about 3 steps and then fall with the tv under me.
Wow, let me tell you how it feels to fall on a tv....not good. At all.
So, I spent the day bedridden and laying on ice yesterday.
The best part of all? While laying on ice: my grams tells me with her hand on hip that I need to hurry up and get better because she can't do the fuckin' move herself!!!

So, what's the lesson? When you see your grandmother carrying a tv, and she says she can get it....just move out of the way and be a spectator.

Oh, and I also lost valuable jug viewing time being at home instead of here with Manders :)

We love My Life on the D-List

Manders and I both have a mutual love for Kathy Griffin's raunchy humor. Of course, I have always liked her as she has a huge gay following but Manders loves it too. Our boss is always saying how she's a gay man trapped in a woman's body....I had never considered it until now. lol...just kidding, Manders. Those jugs are all woman.

There are also a couple of other good shows on Bravo as well. Like Project Runway, which I love. It's so much fun to watch these desperate designers struggling to finish a "runway worthy" garment in the small time given....you guys should check it out sometime.

Until next time...I hope all of my visitors enjoy my new blog.

I know it's a little soon for another post, but I could'nt resist. For those of you who know Manders from X's and O's...she is the inspiration behind this blog. She has the most beautiful jugs ever. I should know...I have been sitting beside her and her jugs for about the last year. They might not alwasy be visible but they're always present. And what a present they are!
Everyone: feel free to leave comments and links to your own blogs!!!

Hello, everyone. I am a normal, homosexual guy who wanted to create a blog that expresses my intereset in jugs. I will be posting about jug sightings and just random events in my life...stay tuned because you never know what I will post.