I am so tired of always being supportive to those who need it but never receiving any support in return. I feel myself turning cold on the inside...I really just dont fucking care anymore.
R and I have made up ( for now ) but things are so shifty they could change in a second. Since he has been home he has ignore me, been all whiny and moping around, and has slept like at least 12 hours a day, and is just weird acting...
I cant help but wonder what the fuck is going on with him. I just dont understand why he is acting the way he is...he has a great life and makes a lot of money, yet is still unhappy. My life is in the toilet right now ( walking to work as a waiter in a shitty little diner ) yet I remain positive and upbeat even though there is no chance for any change any time soon...well fuck it, I cant be uplifting and shit all the time for someone who should not even need it...and can not return the favor at all. Hell, he cant even manage a kind word now and then...
I am facing problems with my family too. I wont go into it but I will say that I am very unhappy. My relationship with most of them is just as shaky as my relationship with R...and that is rocky at best.
Justin, out...of patience.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
some things never change...
R has been out of town for business the last two weeks. While he has been gone, I have had this really weird vibe...which is never wrong.
He was unavailable for several hours at a time. Like, he didnt answer his phone and would call back hours later and say he was asleep. Which is very hard to believe bcs it is so unlike him.
I could tell he was acting weird yesterday when I picked him up. He was distant, quiet, and just acting strange. He acted like he could care less to see me or not. And, he had this really strange expression on his face.
The most incriminating thing is that he didnt even try to have sex with me last night. So, this morning, I checked his lap top. You know I found several things on it that should not be there. Like naked pics of himself, face pics of himself, and a pic of some strange man that I have never seen before. These were all saved to the desktop on his work lap top...which is very strange.
I should have known this would happen. I knew it would...my feelings are never wrong.
wonder what sorry ass explanations he will have this time...but he cant lie his way out of some strange mans naked pic being saved on his desktop...
Justin, fooled again
He was unavailable for several hours at a time. Like, he didnt answer his phone and would call back hours later and say he was asleep. Which is very hard to believe bcs it is so unlike him.
I could tell he was acting weird yesterday when I picked him up. He was distant, quiet, and just acting strange. He acted like he could care less to see me or not. And, he had this really strange expression on his face.
The most incriminating thing is that he didnt even try to have sex with me last night. So, this morning, I checked his lap top. You know I found several things on it that should not be there. Like naked pics of himself, face pics of himself, and a pic of some strange man that I have never seen before. These were all saved to the desktop on his work lap top...which is very strange.
I should have known this would happen. I knew it would...my feelings are never wrong.
wonder what sorry ass explanations he will have this time...but he cant lie his way out of some strange mans naked pic being saved on his desktop...
Justin, fooled again
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)