Things are kinda looking up for me lately...but just kind-of.
R and I have buried the hatchet for now. We ( as usual ) swept most of our issues under the rug. I dont really mind this bcs not much ever gets resolved anyway.
I love him very much and would like nothing more than to be with him...but sometimes it is so hard to look past my frustration to see anything else. I cant talk to him about much anymore, which makes things even more difficult for me.
We are so much alike but so different at the same time. We are both very moody, stubborn, and emotional...but our personalities are different. Our upbringing and life experiences also play a factor in our differences too. I just completely lost my train of thought and my desire to write any further....
much luv to those still reading and I promise there will be more ( positive and non-depressing ) posts coming in the future...it seems like I have been making that same promise for months now and no one wants it to come true more than myself.
Justin, out
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Something is just not right...
I am still unhappy. I just cant seem to shake it. I still cant put my finger on the cause of this unhappiness either...
I am still keeping my five year old niece. It is actually going quite well. I enjoy her so much, I cant even begin to describe it. Knowing she is coming is my reason for getting out of bed everyday...
Today I also had her brother, who is ten. We had such a good time today. We played a lot...
I cooked them breakfast and lunch, we rode our bikes to the park and played then rode back home, then played outside and they rode bikes some more...the day went by so fast but I really enjoyed having them both...
But, at the same time...I was also in a pissed off mood. I didnt show it to the kids at all. I was irritated bcs I dropped my phone in the toilet. Of course it is not working now and I have to get a new one. This will not be too difficult as I have the insurance plan...there will be a fifty dollar co-pay but it beats not having a phone at all.
That's about it for now. I was kinda pissy so I thought I better come type out some frustration as I really dont have anyone to vent to...now that M ( from Ar ) and I still have not talked. Not talked at all for a couple months now...but that is a story for a different day.
Much Luv,
Justin...not miserable but close to it
I am still keeping my five year old niece. It is actually going quite well. I enjoy her so much, I cant even begin to describe it. Knowing she is coming is my reason for getting out of bed everyday...
Today I also had her brother, who is ten. We had such a good time today. We played a lot...
I cooked them breakfast and lunch, we rode our bikes to the park and played then rode back home, then played outside and they rode bikes some more...the day went by so fast but I really enjoyed having them both...
But, at the same time...I was also in a pissed off mood. I didnt show it to the kids at all. I was irritated bcs I dropped my phone in the toilet. Of course it is not working now and I have to get a new one. This will not be too difficult as I have the insurance plan...there will be a fifty dollar co-pay but it beats not having a phone at all.
That's about it for now. I was kinda pissy so I thought I better come type out some frustration as I really dont have anyone to vent to...now that M ( from Ar ) and I still have not talked. Not talked at all for a couple months now...but that is a story for a different day.
Much Luv,
Justin...not miserable but close to it
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