Rants

Hey Y'all...

I met this guy, Jordan. I met him thru a mutual friend ( the same one I met Tony & Buck thru.)
He is cute, seemed nice, and everything was great. Oh, and he's only 24. Well, come to find out he was only using and playing me. That's right, I got hustled. Hard. And I might have caught an STD from him too. I will find that out later. I hope I didnt but it's too late for wishing now. At least it's one that is easily gotten rid of. But still. He really played the romance card on me, and I totally believed it. There were so many red flags but I kept hoping that things were not really what I thought they were. I guess I should always trust me instincts. Always. Oh, well what's done is done. The problem, is that I really liked him. A lot. In the short time I have known him we clicked really well and things seemed like they were going so well. It hurts so much to realize that it was all a lie. I told him if he had just been honest with me, I would have been down with just having some fun, that he didnt have to do what he did...wait, was I really trying to rationalize a hustler? Lord, I am hopeless. Not stupid, I was just blind to it. Anyway, enough about him...at this point he is not worth typing about. I have learned my lesson the hardest way possible again.


On to other news: I hate this girl I work with. She's one of those "I'm pretty, help me, do everything for me" kind of girls. She gets away with so much, it's fucking unbelievable. It's really not fair to the rest of us who obey the rules and do what's expected of us, unlike her. She pushes the boundaries just to see how far she can ( or that's what I think anyway.) I fucking hate her. She has on shorts and flip-flops today in an office environment that's business casual. The rest of us have on slacks and shoes, while she gets to wear whatever she wants. It's not just that either...it's a whole lot more. More than I care to go into right now. I fucking hate her. My only solace is that people like her get what's coming to them eventually. I just hope I am around to see it when it happens. I fucking hate her.

That's it guys: from Hustlers getting over on me to a bitch at work getting away with murder...things are just fucking great for me right now.


I fucking hate her,
Juglover

Nothing Exciting lately...

I have been having a pretty quiet and boring life lately. Well, except for my weekly hook ups but you can only talk about those so much before people think you are a slut. :)

Things are going pretty good for me lately. Work, home, and everything else...no drama. I like this way though.

I am still waiting for a visit from Mackie, you remember it's his turn to come see me. I am hoping it will be in May sometime...before it gets too hot to do anything fun. Speaking of fun, I will be going to the lake this summer with my at-work boyfriend and his wife & kids. It should be fun. Yes, that's right, I resolved my little spat with the old at work bf. I couldnt help it...he isnt really that bad, just a typical man. The type that's not really that nice or fun to be around when busy or stressed out.


I wish I had something more exciting for you guys to read...maybe next week.

Much love,
JUSTIN

CATCHING UP...

A lot of things have happend lately...


My trip to Mackie's was good. Not great, but still good. No fighting, or drama at all. Our big night at the clubs in Little Rock were kind-of a bust. They were a little dead that night, and it was a Saturday too. Oh well, all in all the trip was a success. He will be coming to see me pretty soon. Let's hope that visit will be just as nice.

On to other news...
My at-work boyfriend, who I have let myself develope real feelings for, and I have been kinda fighting the last couple days. Let me tell you, it sucks. Big time. My feelings are so freakin hurt. The worst part is that he doesnt even seem to care. Or, maybe he is just another clueless, careless jerk like many other straight guys. He is not completely straight though. Two days ago he spoke very sharply to me and gave me a couple dirty looks. Then the next day the same thing happened again...a couple times that day. I know I am a very sensitive, emotional person but this really hurt. I have talked to his wife about it all and she says he is just that way...and I should make him pay. I have thought about and have decided that I will just avoid him. For good. No more at-work boyfriend anymore. I guess I will just have to get over him now. I am so frustrated that I have allowed myself to become to attached to a married man, whose wife I am friends with. What a fucking mess!!! I will figure it out and let everyone know how the situation plays out...


Much love to everyone except my former at-work boyfriend,

JUGLOVER

Trip was a success

My trip to Arkansas to see Mackie was good...not great but still good. No screaming and fighting or anything. We had a nice visit this time. There was some drama Friday night but it didnt involve the two of us. I even like his friends that I met on this trip.

Friday night we had a little get together at his house. It was a nice, fun time. Until his cousin Gary got really, really drunk and made some drama happen...more on that another time.

Sat during the day we shopped and hung out, nothing major. Then we went to the clubs Sat night. We had a nice time but it could have been a lot better. The Factory was slow and way too loud when we got there, we didnt stay very long. Backstreet was dead too. There was maybe 20 other people besides us there. So, we went over to Discovery...which had mostly straight people there. No kidding, I would say 90% of the people there were straight. Why do gay bars end up with so many straight people in them? It seems so weird to me...
After the clubs we met a couple of his friends at IHOP for food. Then on to bed...

I came home Sun afternoon, but not before stopping along the Ok and Ar border to buy some adult dvds :) I needed some new ones to add to my collection. :)

Like I said above, it was a good trip. He should be coming to see me sometime in the next four to five weeks...or at least he better. I am hoping we have just as nice of a visit when he comes here. We should have more fun here too...the gay bars here are not full of straight people and we should have no problem picking up some men in them either!

Until next time,
Justin

I am still alive

Hey guys!!

Sorry it has been so long...I know, I know I am a horrible blogger.

Huge News!! I am going out of town again. Now that I have received my tax refund, I am going to visit Mackie again...I hope this trip is better than the last one, when I had that bad-ass cold.

I will try to be more current with my posts from now on. I promise.

I will do a couple more posts this week and then a nice, big detailed one after I return from my big trip.

much love,
Justin

Ramblings

Ok, the last post was about my car in the shop. That was covered by the warranty. However, it messed up again the same day I got it back. Now, it's going back in. Still Fucking Sux!

Why are there people in the world who ignorantly float by life? While the rest of us have to pick up the slack? So much unfairness it makes me want to scream!!! I wont go into great detail about this but I will say what goes around comes around...

On to other news: Remember when the Eclipse got stolen? It was two months ago...Gayle is getting a check for a nice sized amount that she is using to get a Jeep Liberty. Sounds good, right? The only drawback is that's it's white. I simply do not like white cars, they're too plain for me. And hard to keep clean.

I really do not have much to say right now...kind-of boring life right now. I do not mind that though.

Oh, the Russian guy who I was corresponding with? I finally broke down and told him we should only be friends. How could he possibly expect to have a serious relationship via the internet? Without even being able to meet in person...that's just crazy. He did not take it well. At all. I feel badly about how it went down but wish him all the best.

That's it folks...I'm out.

Much love!

MORE CAR ISSUES

For the second time in the last couple months, I have to put my car in the shop. Fuckin' sux! I hate that I will have to be without it again. I almost wish I still had my Grand Am...at least it didnt need to go into the repair shop all the time. I am so over having this Saturn. I pretty much hate it now. It only "worked" for the first couple weeks I had it...since then it's been all downhill. The best part? Everything that has gone wrong with it has not been covered by the warranty...I have had to pay for it. It pissed me off bcs why have a warranty if it's good for nothing?

Ok, enough bitching but I had to get that out there. I traded in a not-so-reliable car for one that at this moment seems less reliable than the other one did.

JUGGY

Eh...

I am blah today. So tired and sick to my stomach too. Not really sure why but hope I feel better tomorrow.

I had a non-stop weekend this past weekend. Late night on Friday followed by a trip to Kansas on Sat for one of my nephew's b-day party. It was alright, there was so many freakin kids there. Kids that I dont know too. It was kinda freaky. The trip of course, took all damn day too. I hate having to go up there for something bcs even though it's only an hour and a half drive, it always turns into a day long affair. I had an alright time though.

Other than that, I didnt really do a whole lot, at all. I needed to get some shizz done but after being gone all freakin day long on Sat, Sun was a lazy day. I need at least one day out of the weekend for just lounging. For real, I need it. I just dont feel right if I dont get my one day of laying around watching tv, and being absolutely lazy. I dont shower or even change out of my pj's. I go to bed that night wearing the same thing I had on when I woke up that morning. No, it's not gross, it's not like I am dirty or anything. Just lazy, but we all deserve days like that occassionally.

So, there we go: my exciting weekend. Can you guys handle it? I dont know...so much excitement is not for the faint of heart :)


much love to all my peeps,
Justina

Things might be looking up

Work has been going ok, I need to make sure I am on my toes every moment of the day. I should anyway, but sometimes you have 20 things going at once, with four different sales reps, on a number of digital presses...you might forget one or two small details that could turn into a huge ordeal. I supose that's the case with a lot of jobs.

I am hoping to take a trip somewhere with my tax refund. Not sure where just yet...maybe Dallas. Somewhere close but still like a vacation. Of course, I will have Mackie go with me wherever I end up going. I would like to go back to OKC for the weekend but he just went last weekend without me so if I want him to go, I might have to choose another city. This plan is still in the beginning phase so who knows what could happen, I just need to get away and have some fun. I have my share of fun here but I really need to have some out-of-town fun. Mackie wants to go to the bathouse in Dallas on a Friday and then get a hotel room Sat morning, go out to the clubs that night, and then come home on Sun...which sounds pretty fun to me. Except when we do trips like that we only really see each other and spend time together is during the drive there and back home. That's ok, when the drives are five hours each way.

Ok guys, I need to get back to work now.

Everyone have a great weekend,
Juggy

MORE ISSUES & DRAMA TOO

It's official: I hate my job again. Circumstances have not been on my side, that's for sure.
I do not want to go into great detail here, some of you already know them anyway but I hope to be moving upward and onward soon...very soon.

Nothing else exciting has really happened to me lately. I did finish up my community service hours, which was kinda nice. No more of that hanging over my head.

My car has been acting crazy again which really has me worried. I am not really sure what to do about it. I am thinking the repair shop told the dealership what was really wrong with the car and the dealership told them to just do a quick fix that would last until the warranty runs out. It's too bad for them that it did not work bcs now I am going to take it back into the shop. I am thinking of offering the owner of the shop a little "incentive" if he will be on my side this time. I need the car fixed and fixed right. Completely fixed too...not just something that will hold up for a while.

That's about it for now...Oh, the Russian dude I have been exchanging emails with for the last couple months wrote that he loves me. He "said" it twice in the same email. So weird, bcs he hardly knows me. I will never type those words in an email to him so he might be in store for a little heartache. I feel a little bad but I have done nothing to lead him on this much. Being friendly to someone via emails is not romantic. His life is so different than mine, so he is prolly just clutching at straws. Poor guy, I might just end up being his pen pal forever bcs I feel like he has no one else. It's sad...

Gotta get Y'all.
Much love, Justin the juglover ( FYI: the jugs who were the inspiration behind this blog no longer reads it so I will prolly be changing the title soon.)

More back problems

Ok, so my back has never quit hurting but now it's back to the oh-my-god kinda pain. I hate it...
It is all I can think about. It makes everything almost impossible. Even simple everyday things like brushing my teeth takes a huge amount of effort. I am back to taking the hardcore pain pills that make me so deadheaded I can barely focus my eye sight. I just hope it eases up soon...


My newest niece is almost a year old! I cant believe it's been a whole year already. She is such a doll. Of course all the kids in my family are gorgeous...it's weird how they are all so good looking.

Here she is...I think she is going to be a redhead just like her uncle the juglover!

She looks completely different than she did when she was a newborn, almost like a different girl. That's her being held by my other niece, Missy Poo, otherwise known as Kiah. Oh, and that's my sister holding both of them, she's Kiah's mom. And Daniel's mom too.

Well, gotta go for now but stay tuned for updates on my back situation...we might need to join hands in prayer!

I HATE THIS OLD, DRIED UP, USED UP WHORE

This bitch has pushed me too far again. She and I have had a very rocky relationship since I started to work with her. She is pushy, rude, and must be dealt with accordingly. With hostility that is...Anyway, she is such a bitch that everyone except for one girl ( one has no other friends either ) hates her at the company I work for. She is a cunt, who gives the word cunt a bad name. I did have a great pic of her spliced with the world's ugliest dog but it would not post as both pics...only one or the other. Oh well, it does not in any way diminish my hatred for this evil, horrible woman. Ok, I have vented and feel much better now.

Thanks for "listening"

JH

The Kids

These are my sister's kids...I just adore both of them and cant imagine our lives without them.

Up first is Daniel, who is nine. Then there's Kiah, who we call Missy Poo, she's four.




Adorable, arent they? I love them so much I cant stand it. Daniel spent the night at my house last night...we had such a blast. He is such a smart and well spoken child. He is very brainy and I think he will be very successful in life. Missy Poo? Well, she's another story...she's very outspoken and athletic. I also think she will be successful but in an entirely different way. She's a riot with her crazy personality, there's no telling what she will say or do! I love every second I spend with both of these beautiful, brilliant kids. I only wish I had had a couple just like them...

This is me...not the most recent pic but I still look the same except a little thinner now.

Ice storm

We have had a severe ice storm here that left me stranded at home for four days. I thought I was going to lose it!! There is about five inches of ice on the ground and has been for six days now. I am so over it! I can not wait for spring time and nice weather to get here. I am looking forward to floating in the pool and drinking beer and getting a nice tan...

I talked to George today for the first time in a couple months. I called my Dr's office to reschedule an appt and he answered the phone. He was cordial enough but the conversation was totally strained. I could actually hear the nervousness in his voice. Serves him right. The stupid bastard does not even know what he missed out on. Or maybe he does...

I do not really have any exciting or new news to share. Well, except my threeway boyfriends have been texting me lately wanting my attention. I am eager to give it to them ( mmm hmm, I am gonna give it to both of them, again! ) but due to the weather I have been unable to go see them. I told them I would have to take a rain check. I cant wait for the ice to melt to I can go see them. I am all kinds of charged up as it has been so long...well a week or so but after my streak that one week, a week without now seems like forever! :-)

My new car has done so good except the cold spell fried the battery. So, I replaced the battery and now it is still acting crazy. I am taking it into the shop tomorrow and get it fixed while it's still under warranty. I just hope it's nothing major bcs that's a total red flag. I mean, it's only been three weeks since I bought the car and there's already problems that must be addressed by a mechanic. Not good. I know, I know I am being a pessimist but damn when you buy a car you expect it to be reliable. I have already had more issues with the Saturn in the past three weeks than I did with the Grand Am in four years. I am starting to miss it. Maybe getting it fixed wasnt such a bad idea after all...ok it was a stupid thought. It had 170, 000 something miles on it and was ready to retire. I am just reminissing about it bcs it never left me stranded or didnt start. Ever. Sometimes it had problems wanting to stop, as I had to get new brakes four times in four years but that's nothing. Maybe the Saturn will get fixed and I wont have any more problems with it. Let's all join hands in prayer for the Saturn, she's my golden girl and I want to have faith in her...

Much love to all you,
Justin the juglover.

I am back..sorry for my absense

Hey everybody! Here we are in 2007, it's the 8th already and this is my first post of the new year.

So much has happened to me already this year....

I bought a new car. Not brand new but new to me. It's 2000 gold four door Saturn. I like it a lot. It gets great gas mileage and seems more "me" than my Grand Am did. It's nothing fancy or anything just a cute little car that will get me where I need to go.

I have been involved in several threeways with a couple. They were getting a little attached so I have decided to take a break from them for now. I do like them but they are a couple who should not depend on me for anything sexual...but they were starting to.

Gayle's car got stolen so she will be getting a new car soon as well. I just hope the insurance will give her a fair deal so she can get something she really wants.

Gotta jet for now, much love everybody.

Justin

Christmas recap

I had my family Christmas thing at my house this year. It was very nice and went off without a hitch, no drama or anything. It was great. I love playing host mostly so I do not have to lug my gifts to and from home. I simply help others carry their gifts in when they arrive.

I had the house decorated really festive and had tons of great food. I started off with lots of simple appetizers like cheese and crackers, a veg tray with dip, and other assorted finger foods. My sister's b-day is Christmas Eve so she always chooses what we have for dinner. It's always fried chicken...she loves my grandma's fried chicken so I did not have to cook. I sat on the couch and watched tv and chatted up my sister ( the super model looking nurse. ) I played with the kids and had a nice time. We didnt open gifts until late in the afternoon but I was excited to watch the kids open all the presents they received. I manned down the video camera this year too. I must have been a pretty good boy bcs I did get spoiled. Again. I usually just get gift cards and cash bcs I am kind-of hard to buy for. I like to pick out my own clothes and do not usually like anything for my house that someone else picks out (sorry but I have my own taste!!)
This year was no exception, I got some gift cards, cologne, a nose hair trimmer ( gross, I know but it MUST be done) some bath and body works stuff, and my mom did get me a sweater just like the one I picked out from her for my b-day just a different color. I was really proud of her for getting me an article of clothing that I liked and that fits me correctly. All in all I would say my family Christmas this year was lovely. Of course no one makes out like grams, she is the oldest and everyone always get her really nice gifts. I got her a standing lamp that has an additional reading lamp that she can adjust for adequate lighting for reading when she's in bed. She reads for at least an hour each night before she goes to sleep. It's kinda weird how well I know her and her habits...but we have lived together for over 15 years. She is the one constant figure in my life and cant imagine who or how I would be today if it was not for her and love and support. I love her more than she will ever know. Ok, I kind-of got off the subject for a second but I do love my grams. I always tease Daniel (my super model nurse sister's nine year old son, my nephew) that she's my grandma and he always gets a little upset bcs they are really close too. It's weird how she works her spell on generation after generation. We are all very lucky to have someone like her in our lives....


Ok, I need to go, I am at work after all and need to do some work. I hope all of you had as nice a Christmas as I did and wish you all a happy, safe, and prosperouse New Year.

Much love, Justin

Workplace idiots

Ok, I love my job but sometimes it can be overwhelming. Since Rebecca quit and they dumped all of her accounts on me, it has been quite different. I love my new sales reps but damn they are difficult. Especially the one who is the "#1" sales rep in the company. He is such a diva!
Ok, here's the real reason for my post...it's Gloria. AGAIN! See earlier post concerning her. She is such a stupid bitch that I am sick of going behind her and fixing her mistakes. :(
UGH! Today I have had to edit/change all of the tickets she turned in. In my opinion if she cant turn in a complete and accurate ticket she should not get the commission for the project. If I am the one who has to do all the work, then I should!!!!

Ok, I do not want this to be an all hateful post....

In other news, one of my at-work boyfriends, Chris who we all call Tina, is getting a divorce from his wife. It's kind-of sad but he seems to be taking it really well. Even though she is pregnant again. WOW! Pregnant and getting a divorce??? Sad, really.

My other at-work boyfriend, Jeff his wife is in love with me. She wants to be my new best friend...which is ok with me. She is very nice but I just hope that my being friends with her will not affect my work place romance with Jeff. He is the nicest guy here and I love to visit with him...it's totally non-sexual!

Gotta jet for now, Much Love Everybody!!!

Another post...

In recent weeks my dating life has been so much different than ever before. After the George fiasco, I kind of stayed away from dating. I have been exchanging emails with a man from Russia, who is very nice but so young and naive. He is so different than I am. Of course, that's mostly because he lives in Russia where it's not really acceptable to be gay. I can only imagine what his life must really be like. I kinda feel sorry for him. I also have been talking to this cowboy from McAlister who is practically ready to get married...despite the fact that we have yet to meet in person. Weird, no? He is nice, aggressive, and pushy all in one. I have not completely discounted him yet though.

Christmas is almost here and I have yet to begin my shopping. Since we have so many kids in my family the adults drew names. I got Heather, my lesbian step sister. I have no idea what to get her! It's supposed to be "secretive" so I cant really ask for suggestions either. Hmm....what should I get her that she will like? So far I have come up with a gift card from Bath & Body works bcs I know how much she likes their products. That seems like taking the easy way out though so I will just have to keep brainstorming. lol...

Sometimes kids can be so funny. Today while I was home for lunch Kiah, my four year old niece was showing me her new pink Converse high top tennis shoes. I asked her where she got them and she replied from her mom. But then followed that up with "we didnt pay for them though!" and busted out laughing as she said told me she was just kidding. I thought it was hilarious too. That girl just kills me...both my sister's kids have had excellent speaking skills that came to them at a very young age. I think it's bcs we talk to them like they are adults. I can rememer when Daniel, who is now nine, was three and I was asking him about something and he asked me what his options were. I was like youre three what do you know about options!! Just another hilarious moment with my sister's hilarious kids...I cant imagine who are lives would be without them...

Much love and Happiest of Holidays to everybody!
Justin the former juglover.

Friends till the END

After two months Mackie and I have finally talked and made up. It's kinda nice that a ten minute phone call can change things so drastically. We are now friends again....
I have been meaning to call him but didnt just because things have been so strained in my life that I didnt want any more drama. As it turns out he has been waiting ( and wanting ) me to call him. I did miss him and have thought about him a lot. I have already lost a good friend and didnt want to lose another one. It's hard enough to make friends so I feel I should do what I can to retain the ones I already have. Besides that, we have been friends for eleven years now...making him the longest friendship I have ever had. I love him and I am glad things are back on track.


In other news...there is no other news. My life is quite simple these days. With the exception of oversleeping this am. I woke when my alarm went off and the next thing I know grams is waking me up and telling me it's 9am. Shit! Late again and I hate to be late. Oh well, at least I have an understanding boss and people in my dept who wont hold a simple mistake against me. I am very thankful for both of those things.

Until later my peeps!