Things worked out?

I think I have worked things out with R. I really dont think he has cheated on me. Well, ok, I am still a little skeptical about it all but have decided to give him the benefit of the doubt. It's really the least I can do. He had an issue with me and extended me the same courtesy, even though the evidence against me was just as damning as the evidence against him cheating was.

I just hope things work out for us...


Alright y'all...join hands in prayer for R and me. It's kinda looking like we can use all the help we can get.


much luv,
the suspicious but still married jug lover

Hold onto your seats...

I think R is cheating on me. Not good, right?

I dont know for sure and have no proof but when I have this feeling it's never wrong.

I have a couple reasons why I feel this way. Here goes...

1. I woke in the middle of the night about a week ago and found him online on a gay hook up site. He swore he wasnt doing anything wrong and wasnt trying to hook up with anyone. I had my doubts bcs when we first got together he told me he has no reason to onto those sites other than to pick up dudes. He said that if he wanted to talk to anyone ( friends ) from one of those sites that he could just call them.

2. After that ( like within the next couple of days ) he kept getting a lot of phone calls that he didnt answer. And also didnt mention who was calling. Oh, he is still getting calls from "unknown" callers that he doesnt answer.

3. He calls me earlier today to tell me that he received a voice message from an old trick asking him if he wanted some dick or some ass. Why in the hell would he tell me something like that? Unless: he intended to hook up with the dude and was absolving his guilt by telling me about the call. Or, he wanted to make me jealous. Well, all it did was make me even more suspicious that he was up to something.

The weirdest part is that his lunch hour is almost up and he has yet to call me...which he always does, everyday, without exception. Wonder what he is doing...or who.


Also, he let is slip yesterday that he has talked to his ex recently. Does he think I am so dumb that I wouldnt pick up on something like that? Does he think I dont pay attention to what he says? ???

The most damning evidence is that he is constantly worried about me cheating. Dont cheaters usually suspect others when they are doing something wrong? He is non stop accusing me of doing stuff. Well, not so much in the last couple weeks. But, that's only bcs I am always here, out in the middle of no where, all alone.

I just dont know what to do or what to think. I really like this guy and want things to work out but it's not looking good. Am I too suspicious? I am too insecure and should be more confident? What the fuck y'all...???
The worst part is that I cant really talk to him about it. Or, at least I dont feel like I can...


I am so lost and confused. I just dont know what to do. I am very dependent on him right now bcs I live in his house. And dont have a job right now either.

What should I do?

Confused, Suspicious, Lost, Alone, Suffering
Justin

Nothing exciting to report

My weekend with R went pretty good. We went to OKC on Saturday to my step son's football game. We left here about 2pm and get home around 11pm...we made a whole day of it even though the game only lasted about an hour. R showed me where he used to work and also where he used to live. It was a nice day outing.

Then we just hung out at home on Sunday...nothing exciting. Excitement is not really needed though.

Today he came home from work at noon. He has an eye infection and seems to be getting a cold. I babied him and gave him some antibiotics and stuff. I also went today and turned in some more applications. Hopefully I will get a job soon. It has to be real soon...I am dying here without making any money. Pray me y'all. Surely someone will have something to offer me soon.

Like I said before, I have nothing exciting to report. Just ordinary day-to-day living here. Although, it is nice to share my day-to-days with...


much love,
Justin the jug lover supreme

another week...

has gone by. I still have not heard anything back about any job applications I turned in. I am starting to get a little nervous about it too. I hope I hear something about one of them soon. R and I will be going to turn in and collect some more apps this weekend.

Things are going ok between R and I. It's starting to seem like we have a couple of good days and then one or two weird days. Nothing serious enough to cause problems for us though. I think our biggest problem is that he wants so much of my attention. I mean constantly. Or, maybe it's just me being too guarded. Who knows? I do think we will be together for a while but it's still a little soon to forecast just how long we might make it. Forever? Six months? Who knows...?
Today is our six week anniversary by the way.

This week has gone by so fast. The days just fly by. It barely seems like it's been four hrs since R left for work and he's calling to say he's on his way home! I can recall everything I have done during the day but it seems like the hours escape me, like they pass by without me even noticing. More weirdness I guess...

There has been some interesting events that occurred this week but I just dont feel like sharing them right now but stay posted, y'all.


Much Luv,
Justin

Sunday morning family breakfast

I just finished up an all American family breakfast. With my husband and stepson. That's right, I said stepson. I of course, cooked the breakfast. I made bacon, eggs, biscuits & gravy and my husband made hash browns. It was really quite nice. R did make some comment about us being the all American family ( I would be the mom. ) :) So, there we were mom, dad, and son sitting in our house in the suburbs eating Sunday morning breakfast. How picturesque can we get???

I could really get used to being a step mom. I wouldnt do it for just any kid, you know. R's son is really smart, witty, and very likable. As a matter of fact, I do like him.

I think things are going to work out just fine for us...


Much Luv
Justin the jug-a-licous step mom

things are looking up

After the two dreary posts I did earlier today, I thought a more positive and up-beat post was in order.

My interview went well. Hopefully I will begin working soon. If not there, then somewhere.

Things are going ok between R and myself. I spent a couple hrs with my family and during that time I think both of us calmed down. I was so pissed and hurt and uncomfortable before I left but not really sure what his problem was. I didnt really ask. I was too mad to care. It's kinda rude of me to act like that but whenever I got like that I cant force myself to be nice. Oh well, it's past us now so I wont be giving it another thought.

It was so nice to see my family. Mom, Sister, Grams, my Niece and myself all hung out for a couple of hours this afternoon after my interview. So great to be with all of them again. I wanted to spend some time with them today to give R and his son some time alone without me being around...and it all worked out perfectly. I am pleased that things worked out even better that what I had hoped for. I am so happy about it too.

R was just in here talking to me as I was typing. He was talking about how insecure he is. He said " I cant go around feeling this insecure all the time." What??? I didnt really get it at first. Why would he say such a thing like that to me? I cant help that he is insecure. I have done nothing to make him feel like that. He is constantly worried that I am going to leave him. Constantly. I mean, talks about it daily. Why is he so worried? Why is he so paranoid about it? I just dont get it... All I know is that I like a strong, confident, and secure man.


JUSTIN

Thank God for this blog

I have no one to talk to about my problems. I would go crazy if I didnt have this page to pour my heart out to. It has been so helpful for me to log on and type away anytime something is bothering me...so much cheaper than therapy too.

I literally feel like I have no one to turn to when I need someone. Here's why...

Mom - is only available on occasion. Plus, she is very hard to talk to anyway. She used to be the type to go around telling everyone she knew everything she knew. I dont think she still does that, now there's just no room for me in her life. She always has something more important going on.

Sister - has a full plate. No room for me in her life either.

Grams - is too old to handle the stress from her own life much less listen to my problems.

M - is so far away and doesnt seem to ever understand anything. He either makes jokes or just wants me to run away somewhere with him each time I try to talk to him. Besides that, I have a hard time trusting him with important stuff. He likes to share too much information with other people ( like Mom used to. )

R - it's hard for me to talk to him. If it's about him, he takes whatever I say and takes it to the extreme. Like if I were to say, I dont feel like having sex, he takes that as I never want to have sex again. He either goes to one extreme or the other when I try to talk to him. Also, I am still really guarded with him. I have a hard time opening up until I really get to know someone. Besides that, he likes to bring things up later after they have been resolved. I cant risk telling him something only for it to be brought up and thrown in my face later.

There you have it...I have never felt so alone as I have in the last four or five months. I hate it.

Justin

Irritated...

and not really sure why.

The son is here. I am sure my mood is not bcs he's here. I dont mind him and certainly dont mind his being here, as I am not so dumb as to fight a losing battle. I think I am irritated bcs R is acting weirdly. After they got home last night he was hinting around at having sex ( he even went as far as asking me if we could on the phone before they got here. ) Like I am going to have sex with the son in the house! We did sleep in the same bed, which was kinda weird too.

I think I might have made a huge mistake here. I dont know if I am able to have a relationship with someone who has kids...not only has kids but one that is here every other weekend. I just dont think I can spend any amount of time being cast aside every other weekend. I know R is the kid's dad and they should spend time with each other but cant help the way I feel. It's stupid and irrational but I just cant help it. I do love R and want to be with him but at this moment, I just dont know if it will work or not. R expects everything to be the same between us but at the same time not obvious when the son is here. Like: he still wants to same interaction between us but only when the kid is not right in front of us...it's tough to explain.

I feel like shit even being here right now. Like I am intruding. They got up, showered, and left. I was not even asked to go. I would not have gone but would still like to have been invited. They are also going to be gone ( without me ) all day long tomorrow too.
Perhaps once I am working and not just sitting here it wont bother me so much.
I do have an interview this afternoon and really hope I get the job. Really hope, really bad...I need the job so much. Not just for the money but also to get me out of the house.


I know as I type this is ridiculous for me to feel like this but that still doesnt change it.
Bottom line? I think I am jealous of the son. Not jealous as in I dont want him here. Not jealous of R spending time with him, with or without me being present. I think my problem is I know the son is always going to be a priority over me.
I have never been "number one" with anyone.
Ever.
Is it too much to ask to want to be top priority, number one, the top of the list with my husband? I feel like maybe it is and maybe it isnt.


I am so mixed up right now. Am I being stupid feeling this way?
R is so jealous of anything/everything and know here I am acting the same way. How do I get past it? How do I deal with it if I cant get past it? What the fuck...

The only thing I am getting out of all this is...that I really do love and want to be with R. I would not be having these types of feelings if I didnt.

Gotta go, me and my petty jealous self have a pity party for one to attend. ;)

so much to talk about!

Ok, here we go...

Yesterday morning when I woke up I could hardly move. My whole left side was hurting all thru my chest and down my left arm. Use of my left arm was limited and painful and my heart ached, it felt like someone was squeezing it. Five hrs in the emergency room told me that I have Pleurisy. It's a swelling and irritation in the lining of chest cavity and lungs. It's totally painful. I am feeling better today and do have meds to take so I will get better...just one of those weird medical deals and will pass soon.

My mom had to come pick me up and take me to the ER. She was pretty nice and considerate about the whole deal, once she got here. I dont think she realized how serious it was until she had to help me put on my socks and shoes.


R's nine year old son will be her tonight. And for the whole weekend. I have tried all week long to get R to talk to me about what we are going to tell the kid about me and all my things being here. R has resisted and put it off so we still have not reached a decision. It sucks for me bcs he will be here in a matter of hrs. Not only did we not decide what to tell him, I found out this morning that while he is here I have to sleep on the couch. The kid sleeps with R even though he has his own fully furnished room, with a bed and everything. Me, thinking I could just sleep in the kid's room, was quickly informed that the kid might freak out if I am sleeping in his room. So, not only have I been kicked out of my own bedroom...I have been kicked out of his too. I dont want to sound bitchy here but this shit sucks. I dont think it's fair to ask me to sleep on the couch, while and empty bed goes unused and the kid is asleep in my bed. If he can sleep in mine, I should be able to sleep in his. But then again, the kid thinks he is sleeping in his dad's bed...he doesnt know it's my bed too. I really dont want any of us to feel uncomfortable but sometime soon R is going to have to come clean with the kid about our relationship bcs I cant spend the rest of my life sleeping on the couch every other weekend. I feel almost like an inconvenience to R by being here. It's got to be tough for him; R wants me here, loves the time when his son is here, and wants us here at the same time but doesnt know how to go about it. Or rather explain to his nine year old that I am his boyfriend and we are living her together.
I really hate this situation. I feel so awkward and out of place...



Gotta go for now...I will post updates during the weekend as things play out.
Justin

Day by Day...

Things are going nicely between R and myself. No major issues. The sex thing is dying down a little. He is starting to take the hint when I dont respond to his sexual advances. Instead of trying to "talk" me into for a half hour, he tries for just a minute or two, then goes to sleep.

I am hoping to hear back on one of the job applications I turned in. Hope to hear something good and hear it soon.

I have not talked to Mom since her brief visit the other day. But, I did talk to my sister for almost a half hour today on the phone. It was a nice chat except she is kinda pushy and a touch like my Mom...weird I never thought she would end up being like our Mom.

Other than that not much to report at this time. I will be having a talk tonight with R about the son coming to visit this weekend. It will be his first since I have moved in. We are going to talk about all the small details of our "story." He is nine so the truth should prolly be best kept secret just a couple more years. I hope it all turns out ok. The hard part is the kid stays in R's bedroom with him all weekend. So, not only will I have to sleep in another room during his visit but he will be in there to see all my stuff in his dad's bedroom and closet...there's bound to be some questions. I hope it all goes ok and turns out ok in the end for all of us. It prolly wont be easy for any of us at first but get easier with time. Golly, I hope everything goes ok...

Well, y'all gotta jet for now but will be back soon for an update. The first part of the week I write about how things went down during the son's weekend visit. :)


Justin

Rant cont....

My bitching from the last post was cut short, so now I am going to finish it up.

To catch you up: R is a sex maniac. Always coming after me wanting some. It can be very frustrating. He is actually driving me crazy...and not in a good way. I dont understand why or how, he can constantly want sex like that. I am worried it could be become a major issue.

Will it? Will we make it? OR, will the sex thing be the end of us and our relationship?


Who knows...

Jug-a-licious

The search begins

I am going today to turn in the applications I filled out. I really hope I get hired somewhere quickly. I can not wait to be earning money again.

My Mom and Mark stopped by R's house yesterday. It was kinda weird. I expected her to visit sometime soon but never dreamed she would bring Mark with her. Needless to say, they didnt stay very long...they were only here to drop off some things Mom bought for me. She is a good Mom like that, almost always there for me. It was a nice visit, even for as short as it was. I did appreciate her buying stuff for me and then bringing it over too.

My weekend with R went pretty good. We spent the day cleaning yesterday and just hanging out around the house. Things are going quite well with us. Our only major problem is sex. He wants it from me constantly. If he is not trying to have sex, he is talking about having sex. I just dont need/want sex that much anymore. I think three or four times per week is more than enough. I have agreed to every other day but that doesnt seem to satisfy him...and it's a bit much for me. We had sex Friday and Saturday nights both and he still hounded me about it all day Sunday. It started to get on my nerves a little. It seems like every time we, oh shit we is on his way home!!!!!!!!!

weekend togetherness...

Spent the weekend hanging with R. Didnt really do too much...except move in with him!

I wanted to go by and check on my stuff Sat morning and R was irritated, he didnt want to go. Once we were there he said "just bring it all bcs I dont want to do this again."
With an invitation like that how could I resist? :) Seriously, I thought it was a pretty good idea. Now I just have to find a job. Filled out several apps already and going to do a couple more online.
We also went out to his parents' house yesterday. We spent a couple hrs there and it really wasnt that bad. Then we went by his brother's house. Only spent a little while there so it wasnt too bad either. Not anything particularly exciting, just a low-key weekend.

I have still been talking to M, my friend from Ar. He is still just the same as ever and our friendship is as strong as ever...some things will never change.

Gotta jet for now...making dinner.

Justin

A whole month

Today is my one month anniversary with R. I cant believe we made it a whole month. Wait a minute, yes I can. This is to be the first month of many, many years spent together. Know why? Bcs we love each other and are determined to make it work. Well, not so much determined bcs that makes it sound like work but we both want it so much...each other that is. ;)


The only thing standing in our way is my unemployment. I am afraid it is becoming an issue. I want to go back to work, just the circumstances so far have prevented me from doing so. This week, we have been a tad broke so there has not been any opportunity for me to use his car to go look for a job, as we have been conserving gas in the car. I will be going online to fill out some apps this weekend though. Why not this week? Not sure...call it laziness, call it unmotivated, call it whatever you want. All I know is, I will have a job before the month ends so I can keep my man.

We are going to spend the weekend together just hanging out. He has said we are going to have a fuckfest or fuck-a-thon in honor of our anniversary. I think it's kinda cute that he wants me so much and so often. I just hope his lust for me lasts and lasts and lasts. If not, I am afraid he might look elsewhere. We are also going to clean his house. Like, deep clean. Call it Fall Cleaning, you know, as in spring cleaning except in the fall. :)

Next weekend his Son will be here. Where will I be? Not sure about that one yet...

In other news; Mother and I have been fighting this week. Well, not fighting about anything in particular, just not getting along. Mostly bcs she is a raging bitch sometimes. It seems like everything else is more important to her than me. That sounds childish but I cant help the way I feel. Perhaps if this hadnt been going on my whole life I might feel differently. I just cant believe how hurtful she can be. I also cant help but feel a little jealous bcs she and my sister are so close these days...but only bcs my sis has the kids ( being a huge fag, I dont have any. ) I know mother kisses are ass and tries to stay on her good side bcs if not, sis will prevent her from seeing the kids...dont know that for sure but I think that's how mom looks it at. Childish again, right? No wonder I am so distrustful...

Back to R...he really is good to my y'all. If only I had met him sooner, perhaps my life wouldnt have spiraled down to where it is. Perhaps...

Gotta jet everybody.
Much luv

???

Get ready for a rant y'all bcs here it comes...

My bf is the moodiest man I have ever met. I have known from the beginning but it seems like things are getting worse. I am kind-of wondering he is doing it to get a reaction from me. Prolly not, I know he has a lot going on right now but the bad/weary moods seem to come out of no where. Like today, after he got home we went for a bike ride and everything seemed ok. When we got back he was all moody. And sad. Usually I have no prob dealing with it but today it really seems to be getting to me. I just cant let his moods influence mine. One of us has to stay sane...why shouldnt it be me?

I just cant help but wonder why I always get a fixer upper boyfriends. Each time I meet someone they are in a low point in their lives. I hate it. Cant I just for once be with someone who is ok with himself and his life? I know, poor me, right? I have met someone and fallen in love and I am complaining. Whoa is me...

On to other topics. Talked to Mom today. She basically told me I would not be welcome at our family Thanksgiving this year. The same goes for Christmas. I guess after what I have done this year it is to be expected. It just really hurts. Badly. Worse than anything I have felt in a long time. I hate it more than anything. When making mistakes the last thing you think about is the residual effects it will have on your life for months to come. At least I didnt and now I am paying the price. Let me say once more "ouch."

Gotta jet, this post was meant to get some shit out of my system but instead it's making me depressed.

Much Luv ;)

Romantic night

Last night when R got home from work I could tell it was going to be a nice evening...

First we went to visit my mom. It went nicely, she was pretty nice and sane for the most part too. We didnt stay too long, just long enough for a nice chat.

When we got back home, I cooked dinner while he mowed the yard ( domestic, right? )
We ate dinner together and then got into the whirlpool tub together. With candles burning and the bubbles going, it was very nice. We talked a little and then things started to heat up so we quickly exited the tub. :)

Once we got into bed the magic started to happen quickly. I was a bit hesitant to let things go too far bcs I was feeling a little gassy. Luckily, that passed and we proceeded to have the most amazing sex ever. Of course, he talked about it afterwards and then again this morning bcs it was just so hot. I am glad the sex between us is good, and hope it stays that way.

On the agenda tonight? A bike ride. I know, I know. Doesnt sound very romantic but I am hoping it will use up his energy so he doesnt come after me in the bed again tonight...a boy like me needs a night to recover :)


much love,
Justin

It's all so real...

At least it has really started to feel real. I am talking about my relationship with Rodney.

We have officially decided to move forward. I had my reservations/hesitations but have realized when love is staring you in the face it's best not to turn away.

I will now be looking for a job here in the Owasso area. That way I can go ahead and move in with my Man. I still just cant believe this is happening. Not really sure why, it just seems so weird. Like life-changing weird. In a good way though...

We just spent the entire weekend apart bcs the son was here, ( not sure what the situation will be the next he visits.) Anyway, I spent the weekend at home but we did speak on the phone several times. At least a dozen or more :) I did miss him and could not wait until Sunday evening when I could be with him again. I could tell he felt the same way, and well, he simply told me so. I think the time apart did us some good. It gave us a chance to be away from each other and see how we felt. I thought about him a lot and know for sure that I want to be with him. I can already see our lives together.

I talked to Mom a couple of times too. Things are going nicely between us even though she is pretty stressed right now. I will most likely be seeing her sometime this week. She has already met R and she seems to like him. I am glad for that. Of course they only met briefly but if she had anything to say about him she would have done so...

Even though I have met R and things are going great and for the first time in months I feel content, I still feel strange. Not sure why or what the feeling is, I just cant shake it. Perhaps I am scared about having to face the world again. Nope I dont think that's it. Perhaps, I am scared about really stating a life w R. Nope, dont think that's it either...well maybe it's part of it. Perhaps, it's that now I have something to lose and I know how much losing something sucks. Especially when you lose everything you have all at the same time. Talk about life-shattering!!!
I have realized I am rambling on...

I guess I will sign off for now until I have something better to write about. Things could get very interesting, as there's a lot that will be happening with me...so I would keep reading if I were you.

Much love

What the fuck...

is the matter with me? I am so moody lately. For real y'all, all over the place. Which is not really like me. Dont get me wrong, I have my ups and downs like anyone else but the last couple weeks the slightest thing has set me off. The worst part? I know it's irrational but cant help how I feel.

Moving on...I am spending my last night with Rodney tonight, well the last night for the next three days anyway. It will be the first time I have slept at home in almost two weeks. Tomorrow is also our third week anniversary. Three weeks, it seems like we have known each other so much longer than that...it's weird.

Gotta go everybody...spending time with my Man.

Justin

Currently cooking dinner for my husband ( or soon to be husband )

As I sit here typing dinner is cooking. I have spent another day with Rodney ( actually another week...in two days it will be three weeks we have been together. )

I still love him, in case any of you were wondering. Everything is still going nicely. I think I can speak for both us on that one. I see the love in his eyes, and let me tell you, it's a great thing. I hope he sees it in my eyes too...

Yesterday was my b-day. That's right, I am now 31. I wont say much except it was one of the worst b-days ever. A lot happened and most of it was bad. That's all I can bring myself to say about it. Perhaps, after some time has passed I will give more details.

Things seem to be going ok between mother and I. I saw her briefly today and she was pretty nice.
Also, grams has moved back down here and is living with my sister...which is only about ten minutes away from Rodney's house. That makes me feel so much better...you know, just knowing she is close by. I know that makes me sad like a co-dependent baby but I cant help it.


Back to Rodney...I really think he could be the one. And not just bcs the sex is so hot. And I do mean hot, scorchingly so. Scorchingly. He is such a nice and attentive boyfriend, which I am not used to. I could get used to it though...very easily. We will be spending the weekend apart this weekend. His nine year old will be with him. I dont want the kid to resent me always being around during his "daddy and me time" so I think it will be best if I stay at home. It will be the most time we have spent apart since we met. It's almost as if we said "hello" and then "I do" at the same time. When it's right, it's right and this time it feels too right to be wrong. I just feel it. I really hope we live happily ever after and not just so I wont seem so foolish after gushing about him so much on here. :-)
Anyways...things are going nicely for me. All I need now is a new job. Wish me luck y'all, I am a homo in Oklahoma looking for a job, not exactly easily obtained. :-) Seriously, not easy at all.
There are many companies who dont even want to consider a homo. Even though it's 2007, Ok is still in the Bible belt and many are still close-minded towards my kind. But then there are many companies who would love a big fag like me, the trick is finding one. Like I said above, wish me luck.

Much love to all those out there wishing me love too...even though I have already found it. :)

Justin, he who loves jugs and his boyfriend ( soon to be husband. )

Another week spent with Rodney :)

My week this week has been very interesting to say the least...

I have been with Rodney all week. Literally, spent every night here for the last ten days. Actually spent every night here in the last 16 days except one. I have gotten to know him very well. So far, so good. I am being very reasonable about what to expect...you know, like not expecting some romance novel or fairy tale romance. I want something real. And real is what I am getting.

Today is Rodney's b-day. He is currently at lunch with his family. Yes, that's right, I didnt go. I felt it was a bit too soon. Also, I didnt want to have to answer any personal questions about myself either...at least not right now. In time I will be more than willing to do family things with him...just not today. I think he understood and hope he wasnt too hurt by me not going. It really had more to do with me and my issues.

Anyways...things have gone quite well for us this week, for the most part. There have been a couple of uncomfortable moments but nothing we couldnt work past, just normal things that normal couples go thru. I really think he and I can make it work. My main concern is that I am not working, or doing anything with myself right now. I really need to turn that around. But I am wondering "How?" "Where?" there are some obsticles there...
Like, should I try to get a job near Rodney's house or where I have been living in Tulsa? That is a really tough one there. There are reason's why I should do both. Oh well...I guess that is a choice I will make a different day.


I saw my grams a couple days ago. It was a nice visit...not great but still good. It was a bit strained or at least I felt like it was...

I feel like things are still incredibly strained between Mom and I and also between my sister and I...really am kinda worried about that stuff too...so much going on right now and feel like I dont really have anyone to talk to about it. I have really always been like that. Like I should keep things to myself. Not sure why, I guess I am more guarded than I thought. Who knew?

Ok, y'all. The winds of change have blown. Now it's decision time. Continue reading to learn which way things go...
Will I end up getting a job in Owasso where Rodney lives and live happily ever after?
Will I end up gettting a job in Tulsa and keep staying at Kirk's?
What will happen? How will things turn out for me????

Justin, he who loves jugs :-)